We don’t have it. While I can imagine falling for Nico and even Caden, maybe Jack and Eli, I’m not sure I could ever love Luke. He’s cold, but there’s this heat to him that draws me. I’d be a fool to give him my heart, or even any of the others, because they don’t love me, and I’m not sure they can. At least not the way I could love them.
But the fantasy still plays in my mind. Caden being Santa putting presents under the tree, Nico and Jack sneaking with the kids to catch him in the act, Eli and Luke holding me while we watch. It’s more than I ever had growing up. A large family. It’s tempting to ignore the warning signs and just fall into the fantasy.
CHAPTER 60
The Standoff
Harper
Caden rolls over on top of me, holding his weight on his arms. “Of course I’ll be Santa, little nympho. And I’ll definitely remember to kiss mommy. We can practice until we get it right.”
He lowers his head to capture my lips. My brain cells fry as he deepens the kiss like he’s in no hurry. This isn’t his all-consuming kiss. His hand cradles my head as his tongue strokes into my mouth, tasting, testing, exploring. Time loses all meaning as he doesn’t make any moves to do more than kiss me.
It’s an odd feeling. Except for that first week, I haven’t made out with someone without the expectation it would lead to more. Caden’s lips are soft but firm against mine. He tastes like minty toothpaste and something just him.
I’m not happy with him only hovering over me, not touching me. I want to feel his body against mine, so I wrap my legs around him to bring him down. Instead, he wraps his arms around me and rolls to his back, so I’m on top of him. He holds the back of my head while he continues to kiss me.
I relax on top of him and let my legs fall to either side of his body. The heat builds within me, but I like that we’re just focused on making out. He isn’t pressing formore, and neither do I.
Vaguely, I register Luke moving around the room. When the bed dips beside us, I open my eyes and pull away. Caden’s eyes are deep green. His lips are swollen from our kiss. Mine feel swollen as well.
Luke sits beside us on the bed reading a book.
“You done with your homework?” Caden turns his head toward Luke.
“Yeah.” Luke sets his book on the nightstand, next to his open computer with his webcam focused on all of us.
I rest my head on Caden’s chest as I watch Eli reading a book, Nico working on homework, and Jack doing something on his other screen. It’s nice they’re all here. When I release a little sigh, Caden chuckles and rubs my back.
It’s so easy to fall into his dream life. A future with all of them in it. But that’s all it is. A dream.
We’re fucking, but they don’t love me. Nico wants this to be more. Caden might want more too. But all of them? That would be ridiculous. Even just having two boyfriends would probably make my mother lock me in my bedroom until I come to my senses.
My gaze goes to Luke, who’s watching me with those shrewd, pale blue eyes.
“Did you want to make out with me too, princess?” He gives me a cocky smile.
I try to keep from smiling, but he can see my lips twitching. I climb off Caden and crawl up on Luke’s lap, straddling his hips. That’s about as far as my bravado takes me.
Luke shakes his head as he lifts one of my braids. “Such an innocent little girl.”
I raise an eyebrow. “Not so innocent anymore.”
“Too shy to kiss me?” Luke’s eyes challenge me.
“Nah, my little nympho isn’t shy. You’re just intimidating.” Caden slides his hand over my backside, making heat curl inside me.
Luke smirks as his gaze falls to my lips. “Am I intimidating, princess?”
My eyes narrow. Hell yes, he’s intimidating. But I know he wants me to kiss him, and that helps.
My hands rest on his shoulders as I lean in until our lips are almost touching. I hold his gaze.
“You can be very intimidating, Death,” I whisper against his lips before pressing forward, locking our lips together.
His hands grab my ass and haul me into him. I hiss at the sting from my spanking earlier.
“Dammit, Eli.” Luke breaks off our kiss to turn to scold Eli. Fuck that.
