No one dared speak of the scabs although one of the physicians had sent Naomi a warning look. She had nodded in understanding.
Arthur’s fevers would come and go, and that was to be expected. Even so, Naomi was surprised when he made an appearance in the nursery.
She had been feeding Amelia, rocking her and singing to her. Her daughter gave her comfort she never would have known.
When she glanced up from watching chubby little cheeks move as her daughter suckled at her breast, Naomi startled to see the door open and Arthur leaning against the door frame watching her.
Instinctively, she covered herself and the baby with a small blanket.
“I was certain we would have a boy,” he commented casually.
He appeared slightly healthier than he had on the day of his arrival, which was to be expected. His shoulders slumped, his breathing slightly labored.
Part of her pitied him but she was also repulsed by a new scab on his cheek, covered with paint.
She could not blame him for the havoc he’d brought into her life, last spring and then after, and now with his return. He’d given her Amelia. For that, she would stand by him.
She could not hate him.
She had lain with him ages ago. She’d given herself to the creature standing before her and together they’d created a child. She glanced down at the tiny face that was staring up at her with absolute adoration and trust.
“I wouldn’t trade her for anything. She is perfect.”
Naomi would protect this child with her life.
Arthur moved into the room and dropped into one of the wooden chairs beside her. She resisted the urge to cringe away from him. “Are you in much pain?” His faithlessness now lacked the ability to torment her.
Apparently, Bridget hadn’t been the only one.
“Pain? What is pain, Mimi?” His expression was oddly reminiscing. “Pain of looking like half a man. Pain of being utterly helpless. I had to stop and rest twice while I was looking for you.”
She flicked a glance to the sore on his hand, and he immediately covered it with his other. “Why did you do it? Why did you need other women? Wasn’t I enough?”Thishad bothered her ever since her run-in with Bridget.
“I never intended to settle down.” He lifted one shoulder casually. “You were ruined—so I married you. But I didn’t think that would mean I’d have to become a monk.”
Hehad ruined her. He’d planted his seed in her belly. No, they both had done that together. She’d take responsibility for what she’d done.
But the truth was somewhat lowering. When Arthur had said he’d love her forever, declared her to be the loveliest lady of his acquaintance, he’d not been courting her for marriage. It had only been flirtation on his part. Knowing this was painful, but it also helped to relieve some of the guilt she’d felt for falling in love with Luke so quickly after Arthur’s “death.”
“You know I love you though, right, Mimi? And I’ll be better in a while. The fevers come and go. I’ll take you and the babe back to Milton Cottage and we can start over.” He reached across the space between them and dropped his hand on her knee. “Nothing has to change.”
Surely, he didn’t think— Naomi bolted off the chair, clutching Amelia, and then scurried across the room. Her heart was suddenly racing. She could not allow him to believe she’d ever be a wife to him again. She’d lain with him for the last time—before he’d gone away—at a time when she’d believed what they had was real.
“Are you insane?” she finally managed in a whisper, careful not to upset her daughter. “I’m not fool enough to not know what those lesions are. I would have been loyal to you forever. Do you realize that? Speaking those vows meant something to me.”
“Men are different, Mimi.”
“Don’t call me that.” It was what he’d called her when she’d thought he loved her. At the time, the shortened version of her name had been special.Hehad made her feel special.
And then he’d made her feel dirty.
“You’re overreacting.” He waggled his eyebrows in the manner she’d once considered to be charming. Dear God, she’d found him irresistible. And now she felt nothing but sadness, regret, and revulsion.
“I am not.”
“Luke poisoned you against me, didn’t he? In that letter he sent.” Suddenly, Arthur’s expression wasn’t so amiable at all. His entire face turned dark with suspicion.
Naomi was shaking her head. “I never got the letter. I didn’t realize you were even alive until you arrived and found me in the garden.”
