“You know what”—JP steps up next to Genesis and puts his hand on her back—“I think I have to greet a couple of people. Genesis, do you mind coming with me?”
“Not at all.” Genesis loops her arm through JP’s. “Kelsey, I’d love to talk to you more, please find me this evening.”
“Sure.” I smile. “Enjoy.”
Together, I watch them walk away, down the hall and toward the party.
What the hell was all that about?
It almost seemed like JP cared about me. Like he didn’t want to see me fail, that he actually thought highly of my talents.
Maybe I’m just delirious. There’s no way JP has any kind feelings toward me.
None.
The door to the side entrance opens again, and this time, a familiar face smiles at me.
“Kelsey,” Edwin says right before pushing his glasses back up his nose. “Boy, am I glad to see you. Did you see all the cameras out there?”
I chuckle and nod. “Yeah, I almost fell on my face in front of them.”
“That would’ve been a travesty.”
“Tell me about it.”
He walks up to me and I half expect him to reach out and at least give me a hug, maybe a kiss on the cheek, but instead, he pats me on the shoulder. “That’s a nice color dress.”
A nice color dress? That’s all he can say about my appearance? I spent a good two hours getting ready today. Curling my long, thick, freshly highlighted hair is the main time suck. And then meticulously making sure I picked out the perfect lingerie that would accentuate this dress, to make my breasts look amazing, and leave no question if there’s a panty line.
Hint—there isn’t.
And the compliment I get isnice color?
That makes me feel... sad.
Growing up, I didn’t have the highest self-esteem when it came to my body, because I was always compared to Lottie, the goddess with curves. I’ve tried hard to make myself feel beautiful, and it’s been a journey. And my insecurities coupled with my inability to be in a relationship have taken their toll on me.
Tonight, with JP’s comment and now Edwin’s... my insecurities are tickling the back of my mind, telling me I’m not good enough.
ChapterSix
JP
“Did you hear what I said?” Genesis asks, tugging on my arm.
“Hmm? What’s that? Sorry.” I clear my throat. “It’s loud in here.”
“It is,” she softly says. “But I can’t help think that you’ve been distracted all night.”
Because I have been.
I’ve been distracted by glimpses of a yellow dress sweeping through the crowd. A yellow dress that I can’t seem to get out of my head ever since I first caught sight of it this evening. A form-fitting creation that wraps around her waist but drapes down to her ankles, and the delicate straps that hold up her mouth-watering tits, and that slit... fuck. I’d lied. Kelsey had looked—looks—stunning in her dress. Why on earth I said otherwise... well, my fucking stupid defense mechanism.
Don’t say you like someone, because then you’ll never get hurt. Fucking idiotic.
But, yeah, I haven’t been paying attention to Genesis because someone else has completely captivated me. And I hate that.
Fuck do I hate that she has control over my head tonight.
