And then, it all came back to Corbin—so much so that he actually began laughing.
Alex stared up at him in confusion.
“Uh…”
Corbin explained.
“Once upon a time, when I was a baby detective, I was shoved together with two Feds. Gene and Ethan became my mentors, and they taught me survival and how to be a good cop. I told them once that I was a top, and only a top.”
Alex listened, not sure where this was going.
“And Gene said to me, he was normally only a bottom, but when you found the right person, you’d do both because you wanted to be with them that much that the role was less important than just experiencing everything with them.”
He waited.
Like he was expecting to get hurt.
Corbin was honest.
“I was never a bottom with Will. I couldn’t do it with him, but I could do it with you. You’re the one. You’ve always been the one, Alex. You couldn’t find your person because I was off trying to find me. Now, I’m here. I would be a bottom with you. I’d be anything you asked me to be.”
Tears filled Alex’s eyes.
“Really?”
He was honest.
“I love you.”
And there it was. Corbin already knew, and he wasn’t holding back like he did before. He would absolutely let Alex fuck him, and no one had touched his ass since that assault. He instinctually trusted this man so much, that he’d share that intimacy with him.
“Corbin,” Alex whispered.
The man smiled.
“You’ll catch up, Baby. I know you will,” he said, finding his mouth again.
The kiss was nuclear, and they rolled around on the bed, getting tangled together in the best possible way.
Pants came off, and then underwear followed. When they were both naked, Alex stared up at him.
“Show me how to love. I need to learn.”
Corbin grinned wickedly.
“Buckle up,” he said, before starting to kiss his way down Alex’s body. He lingered at his nipples, and teased them to rile the man up. Corbin could feel the wetness against his abs, and knew someone was already dripping precum.
Taking Alex’s hands in his, he kept them trapped by his side as he continued down, teasing, tormenting, and offering up all he had.
Because he found what was missing.
Thank you, Will, for setting me free. I’ll never forget you, and I’ll love you forever, but it’s time for me to love again and to find my way back onto the path. I want to live, and I need to love. I’ll never forget our seven years. They made me who I am today, and for that, I’m blessed.
He sent that last thought off to the universe and bid his deceased husband goodbye.
Corbin didn’t want to live in the past anymore. He wanted to live in the moment.
As he traced a path around Alex’s belly button, the man whimpered and reacted. It was when Corbin wrapped his fingers around his erection that Alex’s body bowed.
