Chapter 19
Cora
Saar
Are you alive?
Celeste
I stopped by the bistro but it’s closed.
Lily
Jesus, go check on her at home.
Chill. I’ve been sick and took a few days off.
Saar
I didn’t know it was that serious when you canceled the date. Can I get you anything?
Celeste
Do you want me to come?
You don’t need my germs. I’m fine. I have everything I need. Ipromise.
“Xander,” I scream for the third time. My legs quiver, my pussy clenches, my mind is wiped blank.
With my legs wrapped around his waist, I tilt my head back and close my eyes. The water streams down my face, its warmth in contrast with the cold tiles of my shower.
The man has stamina. I give him that. And he is strong as fuck. How he manages to hold me and pump into me at the same time is beyond me.
Yet here we are, and the handsome devil chases his release and looks like a god of sex. On his face are only desire and bliss, no exertion.
I guess he’s my fiancé now. Jesus. I’m really doing this, am I not? Though at the moment, satiated to the brim, my system flooded with happy hormones, I am probably the happiest bride-to-be in the world.
There is a small part of me that the orgasm-induced bliss hasn’t reached yet. That part keeps reminding me that this will lead to heartbreak. Because we might have negotiated the conditions, but this is not a business arrangement.
This is a relationship.
Physical only.
But still a relationship.
And even that part isn’t completely true, because if it was only physical, Xander wouldn’t show up in all the ways he did.
He took a Cinderella to the ball and never let go. He pampered me with massages and a facial when he saw how tired I was.
He didn’t want me to be alone on my birthday.
The way he showed up for me when I got sick.
The man sold his freaking bike.
When I close my eyes and only feel his body flush against mine right now… his muscles straining under my fingertips on the background of his thrusts and my moans, I allow myself to fantasize that this weird union can somehow work.
But I remind myself it’s only temporary. He will get his deal, and he will move on. Get a few more years of fun under his belt and then settle down with a woman his own age and start a family.
