That feeling I’ve been searching for is right here between us.
I nip at his lip, taste the coppery flavor of his blood, swallow his moan because Shai needs this, whatever this wild, untamed thing between us is.
Love, love, love.
It’s love.
I kiss down his body, his flat stomach, to the head of his thick, pierced cock. “God, I fucking love it,” I tell him, licking from the tip all the way down to his fat, full balls. I breathe him in, savor the scent and taste of him. His hands thread through my hair, my ass in the air as I look up at him, hold his cock, then suck it as deep as I can.
“Love you,” he says. “Love you, love you, love you.” Each time the words leave his mouth, I’m flying higher, that sensation building more and more inside me until I know I’m going to burst with it.
“Everything about you,” Shai says. “The wildness, the stalking, even when you almost go too far.”
I know what he’s doing, telling me I’m not too much, that I’ll never be too much and that whatever happens, we’ll find a way to make it work. He’s not going to leave.
I take him deeper, try to show him with my mouth and my hand how much that means to me, how much I need him, that as much as I love my family, he can give me something they can’t…and I want it.
“I love laughing with you and playing for you. Love watching movies with you, hunting you…robbing people with you,” he continues, and I smile around his cock. “Seeing the joy on your face when you spent the night connecting with the boy you used to be, putting together a model plane.”
That’s what I did tonight, isn’t it? I showed that boy that everything will be okay, that he’s not alone, that Cillian is still here…Tiernan is here…Ash is here…and now I have this—I have Shai.
I choke on his cock I take it so deep, want to feel him all the way down the back of my throat. He pulls me off him, though, flips me so I’m on my back, looking up at him.
“You’re mine, Ror.”
“And you’re mine. I’ll do anything for you, anything to protect you. If anyone fucking looks at you wrong, touches you wrong, they’ll have me to deal with.”
Shai grins, this wicked fucking grin that lands in my chest. “Good.”
He pulls the panties down so they’re beneath my balls, and then it’s him sucking me. He’s so fucking good at this. Iwant to hunt down every man he’s practiced on and thank them for it, then slit their fucking throats for touching what’s mine.
I fist his hair, pull it, fuck his mouth because I know Shai can take it. I know he loves it. My body is so sensitive, my skin tingling from head to toe, my brain exploding with sensation and truth, my heart beating so fast, growing so big, I don’t know how I’ll ever survive it.
Shai growls, tugs the panties down farther, and shoves my legs toward my chest. I hold them up for him, arms hooked beneath my knees as he dives straight to my hole.
“That’s it…eat me out. Tongue-fuck what’s yours. Open me all up for you, Shai. Show me you love me.”
He makes another hungry sound, flicking his tongue over my rim, softening me, pleasuring me. I feel out of control, not in that place where I can’t be reached, but in a place where pleasure is king and Shai the only one who can deliver it. I push his face into my ass. How did I not know how incredible this feels? What it could feel like to be loved this way and touched this way.
“Fuck me,” I beg.
“I’m getting there.” He pushes his tongue into me, gaze meeting mine as he tongue-fucks me, my balls against his face in the hottest way. He pulls back only to suck his finger, then pushes it deep within me. My back bows off the bed, my body feeling like it’s splintering in ways I didn’t know were possible. I practically thrash beneath him as he works one finger, then two inside me. My body already needs less prep than before, and like a good lover, Shai knows exactly how much I need.
When I’m ready for him, when I’m melting into a puddle of nothing but want, he pushes to his knees, grabs the lube, and slicks up his cock.
“Look at me,” he orders.
“Like there’s anywhere else my eyes would be.” I only ever want to look at him.
He lifts my legs to his shoulders, his gaze so fucking intense as he begins to push inside.
“Mmm, yes, that’s it. My favorite fucking place to be. Your ass was made for my dick. I was made to be by your side…now and always…in everything.”
He pushes into me, and I can’t move, can’t breathe. Everything feels right, perfect, like all the pieces have settled into place, the picture clear in front of me.
Me and Shai.
Always.
