“Yes.”
“What do you want?” I ask him. “I would give it up for you if that’s what you wanted.” It would kill me—Cillian and Ollie too—but I would do it. “It’s up to you. It is always up to you.”
“You,” he answers simply. “Them. Us. I want it all. Every part of you.”
I smile, and he kisses it, the tingling in my skin growing, but more than that, more than the sex, it’s that feeling ofcompleteness in my chest, the way my heart grows so big, it doesn’t feel like it fits anymore. “I want that too,” I tell him, and then louder say, “Come in.”
CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX
Shai
We don’t evenbother to cover up. It’s not as if Cillian and Ollie haven’t seen us naked before, but I do tighten my hold on Rory, needing him close.
Ollie comes in first, Cillian right behind him and closing the door. Their hair is wet, telling me the first thing they did was shower too. Cillian wraps his arms around Ollie, looking like he’s holding him as tightly as I am Rory.
“We didn’t want to be alone,” Cillian says. “We needed you.” Cillian eyes me, so confused, so penetrating, like he’s unraveling more truths he didn’t expect to find. “Both of you. We need to feel it. What Rory feels when he’s with me and Ollie, being a part of us, we need to feel it with Shai too.”
Rory doesn’t answer. He’s waiting for me to do that. I have to be the one. He’s giving me that choice, that power, and damn do I love him even more for it.
“We need that too,” I say, watching them, skin hot, heart swelling.
I used to think I hated Cillian, but how can I hate someone who loves so fucking big? I see it in him, feel his love for Rory and Ollie, his love for the rest of his family. Cillian is the heart, Rory the soul, and Tiernan the foundation that holds them together, but that heart and soul, I feel like they’re insideme too.
“I want to share that with you all,” I add. “The man I’m in love with and the people he loves.”
Cillian nods, Rory and Ollie letting us have this moment, letting us settle on this common ground neither of us expected to have.
Rory’s back is to me, my arm around him, hand running up and down his torso, the contact between us vital. “What are your rules?” I ask.
“Nothing sexual between you and Ollie. It’s not you. I wouldn’t be here otherwise, wouldn’t let you see Ollie if I didn’t trust you with him, but I don’t think I can handle that. Maybe one day, but not yet.”
“Okay. I only want Rory that way.”
“And I only want Ollie that way,” Cillian says.
None of this is about sex. Not really. Those who only see it that way don’t getus. It’s about me feeling Rory and Cillian’s bond, Ollie feeling it, and how Rory and Cillian connect that way. It’s bigger than sex, bigger than love even, and I’m so fucking grateful to be a part of it.
“You can touch Ollie’s hands, his face, but no kissing. I like to lock my fingers with Rory, for the connection. You can touch Ollie that way with me.”
My heart races, pounds in my ears, and I feel…so fucking open…to all of them. This moment was destined to happen, four pieces fitting together to create something beautiful.
“You can still do that with Rory too…and with me and Rory.”
“And me and Rory?” Ollie asks.
“You can have him the way you always have. I want to see that, feel it. I’ll bet the two of you are gorgeous together.”
“My bunny is so hot for cock, baby.” Rory pushes his ass against my groin. “Just like me. He made me want dick, andnow that I’ve had yours, it’s even better than I imagined. I want it all the time. Want to ride your big, fat dick while he takes Cil’s.”
My cock twitches, sliding against his crease. “I’ll always give you what you want.”
“So fucking spoiled, aren’t they?” Cillian slowly lifts Ollie’s shirt, pulling it over his head. “I always give my kitten what he wants too. We can spoil them together.”
“I won’t argue with that.” Rory chuckles. “But you’re taking too long to get naked. Shai hasn’t gotten to see you yet.”
“So impatient,” Cillian and I say at the same time. We laugh, some of the nerves in the air seeming to dissipate.
“Can Rory come help me get Ollie naked?” Cillian asks, the question making energy pulse through me like an electrical storm, him setting the tone and showing me that he knows Rory is mine. That anything we do has to be okay with me, and damn, do I appreciate it.
