“No, I wasn’t…that’s not what I…”
Enoch bit back a smile or maybe it was a laugh, and I threw my head back with a groan.
“Shy,” he said softly. “It’s okay.”
I rolled my eyes to myself before looking back down at him.
“I’m good with waiting,” Enoch said. “Seriously. I’ve never even had sex before…” My eyes widened with surprise. “So, if you’re saying sex is off the table right now, I’m okay with that.”
Great. I’m basically a whore and he’s a virgin. Is he waiting for marriage or…
“It’s not that I don’t want to have sex with you,” I paused, and he nodded for me to continue. “I just…I haven’t exactly had the best experience with it. And to get off I usually have to…”
“You usually…” he repeated.
My nose scrunched with discomfort. “Never mind. It’s too embarrassing.”
Enoch’s eyes lit up with curiosity and he smiled. “Well now I definitely want to know. Are you into something kinky?”
My hands shot up to cover my face. The humiliation too much to handle with his eyes on mine. “No.”
Enoch gently grasped my wrists, pulling my hands away from my face.
“You don’t have to tell me. But whatever it is I’m not going to judge you.”
I opened my eyes, looking up at him through my lashes.
I wasn’t about to tell him that I needed pain to orgasm, so I settled for a lesser truth.
“Is it weird that I fantasize about you when I…” I trailed off, my face on fire.
Enoch licked his lips, unable to contain the smile on his face. “You’re joking?”
I shook my head, my teeth painfully cutting into my cheek.
“Hell no. That’s not weirdat all. I’m flattered that you think of me during your sexy time.”
I cringed, shaking my head. “Sexy time?”
Enoch chuckled. “Well, you seemed too embarrassed to say the word masturba–”
“Oh my gosh, shut up!” I screeched, using my hand to cover his mouth.
“What?” he asked with a muffled laugh through my palm.
“You’re so annoying,” I muttered, pulling my hand away from his mouth. “I wasn’t even trying to talk about sex, you horny shitbird.”
Enoch laughed again before smoothing his palms down my ribcage. “Sorry. Why don’t you tell me whatyourexpectations are?”
I chewed my lip with thought. What did I expect from him?
“Um, monogamy is definitely non-negotiable. And I like kissing you, a lot.” He smirked and I couldn’t help but smile back. “But I’m not ready for sex.” Enoch nodded and I continued. “I guess I also want you to be honest with me. Like, if you change your mind about us or about me or whatever, if you just tell me right away, that would be nice.”
Enoch pinched my side, and I squirmed away from his touch.
“I told you. I’mnotgoing to change my mind.”
I nodded, not willing to argue the point. “Okay. What…um, so, your turn.”
