Shaking my head, I step out of the room to grab the treats and get a moment to myself.I rest against the wooden frame and drag in a deep breath to force my heart to slow down.This is ridiculous.I have far more restraint than this.
She's a bomb.That's all.A delicate explosive that has to be handled carefully lest it go off and destroy us both.Clenching my fingers into a fist, I slam it into my thigh as I try to put my training into practice—a practice I should be able to drop at the door.
I want to be angry, but truthfully, I'm far too exhausted.All I wanted was to come home, spend some time with family, and then immerse myself in my new assignment.Now, more than ever, I want to escape, to say fuck family and just run back to the safety of Buckley.Wait… no… not fuck family….FUCK.
Now, all my brain can think about is Lila bent back over the counter with my cock sliding into her pussy, forcing my way into her tight little cunt while she gasps and whimpers, too full, too stretched.That's not the fuck family I was thinking of, but now my mind and pulsing shaft want nothing else.I've seen what she reads.I know the toys she just bought.I know far more about her than I should as a stepbrother.
The main problem with knowing all this is knowing that she could, quite possibly, desire the same type of rough sex I do.It’s not a stretch to think that she fantasizes about being held down, used, claimed.No.I can't let my mind continue down this path.It's already hard enough with her flitting about in those barely decent shorts as if she's wearing a neck-to-toe gown.
How is Robert okay with this?How can he let her parade around in so little clothing?Does he not see me as a threat?Of course he doesn't.I've never given him a reason to think I'm just as deviant as any other horny Alpha out there.
"Hey.You get lost or something?"Lila's soft voice nearly short-circuits my brain as she comes around the corner."I thought you brought me candy."
"And I thought you were more than satisfied with my mom's muffins," I retort with a slight snap in my tone.
She jumps back a step, her eyes wide and wary."What's your problem?It's not like I ate all of them.I remember how much you eat."
Turning, I look down at her and smirk at the firm set of her lips and glint of irritation in her eyes."Did you ever go hungry?"
"Well, no."
"Then why does it matter?"
In an instant, her expression changes to confusion."It doesn't?Look, if you don't actually have anything for me, that's fine.I could always just not give you my Christmas gift."
Though I can tell she's teasing, my heart melts just a touch."You got me something?"
"Well, duh.I mean, it's not a lot, but it seemed perfect for you."
You're perfect for me.
Talk about intrusive thoughts.Maybe once I'm back at Buckley, I need to sign up to see psych.But then, it might jeopardize my placement.Dammit.This was all just a big, fucking mistake.
"Give me a minute to freshen up then you'll get your candy."
With a mischievous smirk, she gives me a wink and turns back around."Don't take too long.I can be a bitch without sugar."
"Language, young lady," Robert calls out, making her smile disappear from her face completely."Is that what they're teaching you at that college of yours?"His voice changes as it sounds like he's talking to my mom instead."I told you it was a bad idea to send her so far away.Those schools will only corrupt her."
"Now, Bobby," she cajoles, making both Lila and me grimace and pretend to dry heave at the same time since they can't see us."This is good for her.This is good for you.She needs to learn who she is, and she can't do that here.Look at how great Nate turned out.He certainly didn't stay home."
She wouldn't be saying that if she knew the thoughts swirling through my brain as it dumps pure lust and adrenaline into my veins.In fact, I'm sure she'd want me back in Germany where I can't come near Lila.Glancing over at my stepsister, I watch as she gnaws on her bottom lip.
Her misery should tamp down my hard-on.It should make me limp and unwilling to engage.Unfortunately, seeing that glimmer, that sheen of unshed tears in her eyes, only makes me want to see those pretty tears fall down her pretty face as I stuff her mouth full with my cock and make her gag around my tip.God, while I make her choke and sob while I hold her head down, using her like the desperate little toy she probably wants to be.
Just not with me.Any other Alpha but me.It’s a sobering thought, one that lets me confront my stepfather.
"It was my fault, Robert.I was pestering her."
He finally comes out of the kitchen, his lips turned down into a frown."Still though.She shouldn't be talking that way."
As Lila opens her mouth, I stick my hand out, showing her I have this under control.It's the least I can do as penance for the depravity I want to unleash on her.
"I mean, as much as it sucks, she's not a little girl anymore.According to the country's laws, she's an adult.I'm pretty sure the language modulator gets reprogrammed at the age of eighteen.What can you do?I'm afraid it's permanent.So far, scientists haven't found a reset button.We're all doomed."
Her eyes widen as she listens to my ridiculous spiel, but it works.Instead of being upset at her, he laughs at the absolute absurdity of my words.With him distracted, it should take the edge off his irritation with her.
Reaching out, he claps his hand on my shoulder."I guess I can't argue with science, then.You're the expert after all."
