Maybe love like that just wasn’t out there for everyone, though. “I’m so lucky,” I whispered.
Declan dragged Jake tight against his front and the display of power had me gasping.
Jake whimpered out, “Fuck, can you do that again, Logan?”
“Uh….” I wasn’t sure what I’d done, so I started talking again as Declan tugged Jake toward the door of what I assumed was their bedroom. Jake let go of my hand, and I clenched it to try to keep his warmth against my palm. “Let’s go to bed.”
Jake let out a low-pitched giggle as I followed them into the dim bedroom that seemed typical enough. The black outline of a large bed dominated the center of the space. Declan turned to snap on a lamp sitting on a nightstand, and I blinked against the brightness.
“There’s a chair for you,” Declan whispered, and I snickered because for some reason that struck me as funny. I glanced into the corner where there was a wooden chair I might have expected to find in a dining room. It was nice furniture. I couldn’t quite shake off feeling a bit melancholy, but the room was warm and safe, and Declan and Jake were so happy.
Standing near them was like being too close to a bonfire.
Keep your shit together. You’re not going to be a weepy drunk.I cleared my throat and went over to sit down on the chair, then stared at my feet and drew my legs together until I was curling in on myself like a dried-up leaf. My knees touched.Talk. You need to talk.
“What did you do while I was away, sweetheart? Did you eat right? I know you like too much junk food. Did you jerk off and think about me?” I kept my words slow and even, the same way I did when I recorded, even though I wanted to rush. But that wasn’t how lovemaking should be, was it? It shouldn’t be fast-forward. It should be steady and careful. “I wanted you, too. Wish I could’ve been inside you before tonight. I’d quit my job if I could. You deserve to have me with you, in you, on our anniversary.”
I thought maybe I was crossing a line somewhere by deviating so far away from what I said in my recordings, but there was a particularly loud growl and I glanced their way. Jake straddled Declan with his knees pressing down the bed on either side of his thighs. The fabric of his sweatpants was stretched tight and his perky ass was round and bitable. Declan looked up and sent me a wink over Jake’s shoulder.
My heart jerked and heat rushed my body in a sharp spike.
Jake, for his part, had his eyes closed, and his head fell back as Declan kissed along his neck. My stomach heated and I clutched my knees. I tugged at my collar again. Tingles flooded my stomach, rushed my groin… and my cock pulsed and hardened as I watched them. I sucked in a deep breath, then stared at the floor. Hell, I’d worried this might happen, but I had to ignore it. The thirsty throb of my cockhead had me kneading my knees to keep my hands away from my zipper. There was another sweet laugh from them as they whispered together.
Being all the way over here in a chair in the corner made me feel weirdly like I was in time-out while everyone else was at recess. It was an old humiliation that woke in me, that certainty I’d fucked up somehow and everyone else was getting a treat. I shook the bad feeling off, but a small ache lingered.
“It’s okay if you took care of yourself while I was gone,” I said and couldn’t help the huskiness in my voice. “I wasn’t here to help you. To fuck you. I hope you had a good time alone, but I’m here now. You can use me instead of your hand. Was the plastic of your toy cold when you fucked yourself? I’m so warm. Hot, just for you.”Damn, I’m too hot.I picked at my collar again. “Did you fuck yourself hard? Did you make your hole sore with your toys, trying to satisfy yourself when you really needed me? Tell me. Was it good? I want you to use me to come.”
“Logan, say that again,” Declan demanded. I snapped my attention to them. Jake visibly shivered in his arms and rutted his hips forward against Declan’s stomach. They were fucking beautiful. My cock throbbed, and I spread my legs a little, trying to find more room for myself in my jeans—but there was none.
“I want you to use me to come. I want you to scream for me.”
Declan lifted Jake by the thighs, stood, and upended him onto his back on the bed. Jake stuffed his hand under his waistband, and he clearly had a hold on his cock, which made mine tingle and pulse. I bit my lip hard. Declan yanked Jake’s hand out into the open again, and laughing, he lay down and covered Jake’s body with his.
“I want you to scream for me,” I said and closed my eyes. “I want you to fuck yourself on my cock. I want to ream you so well you hate the thought of coming with anything but me in your ass.”
“Yes.” Jake moaned, and I opened my eyes in time to see him wriggle as Declan thrust between his spread legs, rubbing them together while they were still clothed. I was surprised by how much they were taking their time and enjoying each other… more than I ever had with a partner. Was this just another one of their quirks? Jake laughed as Declan slipped a hand between them, taking over where Jake had left off, and I could only imagine what he was doing to his husband.
Declan glanced over his shoulder at me and smiled as he thrust forward. “He’s watching us, Jake. Open your eyes and see.”
Jake’s dark eyes fluttered open, and his lips parted like Declan had done something extra fucking good where he held him in his sweatpants.
My balls were stuffed with cum and ready to shoot, and my dick pushed at my fly. Fuck, what was I supposed to be saying? I leaned forward and refused to allow my hands to move from my knees or I would embarrass myself.
“You feel so good underneath me.” I closed my eyes and imagined what Declan was feeling, since this was for Jake as a present after all. It was supposed to turn Jake on. “Your body is so warm. I can’t wait to be inside you. Your mouth is soft, and kissing you is the best part of my life. I want to….” I couldn’t swear in my ASMR videos, but I could say whatever I wanted right now, and that had me a little giddy. The room smelled good, like cologne and sweat. There was panting and whimpering from the bed, and the sound of rustling clothing hit my ears. My spine stiffened, and I held in my own gasp. Tonight I could go wild and no one would know. Say anything. Jake and Declan would tell me if I went too far—hopefully. “I want to fuck you, and I want to know you’re having a good time. I want to see you squirming on my dick. Screaming my name.”
Jake growled. “Fuck yes, fuck. Oh my God. Keep going, Logan.”
Declan snickered. “I got too proud. I thought,” he said, and as I cracked my eyes, I got a glimpse of Declan’s inspiring bare ass and his hips twisting. “I thought that ‘oh God’ was for me.” He grunted and fucked forward.
I’d missed them getting naked… and…. I let out a low moan of my own. How the fuck had Declan gotten into Jake’s ass so fast? Part of me was insanely disappointed I hadn’t seen him finger Jake’s hole… if he had. Maybe he’d just slicked his cock and dived in. My dick almost hurt, it pushed so hard against my jeans. I had the perfect view of them without their clothes, on top of the covers. Declan held Jake’s crossed legs in front of him with both hands as he snapped his hips forward and stared down. I couldn’t see their cocks from where I sat, but heat rushed into my cheeks anyway, and my dick gave a needy quiver. My shoulders hurt from the effort of keeping my hands still.
“You know I’m enjoying myself, don’t be that way,” Jake said on a gusty breath, and then cried out as Declan smashed them together hard and rutted against Jake’s ass. Then Declan’s shoulders flexed in a delicate play of muscle as he pulled out and flipped Jake onto his stomach. Declan bodily hauled him up onto his knees.
“You’re so beautiful under me. I love it when you welcome me home like this,” I said.
Jake’s head fell forward, and somehow they’d turned just enough that I caught sight of Declan’s cock. I squeezed my eyes shut.
Taking a deep breath, I made sure my voice was as low as it could go as I murmured, “I never want to stop looking at you. I miss you so much when I’m not here. You’re the best part of being home. You make my whole world.”
