When he finally pulls back, his Adam’s apple bobbing as he swallows, his eyes watery as he looks down at my mark, I feel it.
A rush of love I never imagined I’d ever feel.
I pull him back to me, and he gives me more of his weight. The blanket of his body comforting as I let all these new sensations rush through me.
“Fuck,” Hayes hisses next to me, and I glance over Nate’s shoulder and watch as Sterling marks him. He’s got Hayes on his back, fucking him and stroking him at the same time.
Hayes covers himself in his own release as his eyes roll back, and I watch as the bond takes hold.
They’re beautiful together, watching them has me in awe. I hold Nate closer to me, and he grunts, his knot shifting inside me.
I moan and Hayes’ hand reaches out, squeezing my arm as Sterling licks the bond before grabbing his chin and kissing him deeply.
The action has me kissing the side of Nate’s face and he rubs my scalp.
There’s nothing but contentment, adoration, and pure happiness down the bond with him and I bask in the emotions. A kiss presses against my cheek and I realize it’s Sterling as he leaves the nest to go to the bathroom.
Hayes lies next to me covered in cum and his hand strokes up and down my arm and then Nate’s back.
The water runs in the bathroom and after a few minutes, Sterling comes back after cleaning himself with a warm rag in hand. He washes Hayes’ stomach before plopping down on the bed.
Words are hard to find, but Hayes somehow breaks the silence.
“Fuck. If I knew it was going to feel that good, I wouldn’t have made you wait so long. But it was worth it. Because I’ll get to feel you soon too.” Hayes leans over, kissing me, and then kissing Nate, who can’t go anywhere with his knot inside me.
This isn’t like heat where we’re all ready to go after coming. We can take our time. We have all night and I don’t plan on rushing this feeling.
We’ve cleaned up, my bra long gone, all of us completely naked on the bed. Nate and Sterling have traded spots.
I swallow thickly as I turn and face Sterling, wanting to give him my full attention. I move a hand down his smooth face and he grabs my ass, pressing me closer to his body.
His scent is soothing and I’m not sure why, but I’m more nervous with him than I was with Nate. Maybe it’s because he’s pack leader, or maybe it’s because I’m just overexcited that when he bites me it means we’ll all be fully connected.
I’ll be able to feel Nate and Sterling clearly, but there will be a soft trickle of Hayes’ emotions if I try hard enough.
It’s then I realize why I’m so nervous. Nate, on some level, understands that I’m fucked up. It wasn’t as scary to put my feelings on a platter for him to see. He has scars from the same people.
But Sterling is so steadfast, he comes from a great family, he’s an amazing person and to bog him down with how I feel all the time? I’m not sure I really thought this through.
Sterling grabs my face, forcing me to make eye contact with him. The look that washes over him is a balm to my insecurities, because the way he looks at me is like a man without a single doubt of what he wants, and that’s me.
“Are you nervous, baby girl?” he asks, my heart swooning at his pet name for me.
I lick my lips, looking down, and he squeezes my chin again, making me look back up at him.
“You’re sure you want to feel me all the time, all my emotions?” I whisper.
He smiles. “I want to know everything that goes on in that pretty little head of yours, and I want every piece of you.”
Sterling has been so sure since the beginning, he’s truly the glue that holds everyone together and I need him to know how I feel before he commits.
I clear my throat as I stare into his amber eyes. “I want every piece of you too. I didn’t think Alphas like you existed,” I whisper, sliding my fingers down his face. “You hold everyone together. You’re kind, attentive, and loving, and everything I was looking for.”
“You’re everything I was looking for too,” he says.
“I know Nate and I had history and Hayes was the spark that ignited this all, but I just want you to know that you’re the glue. You’re the blueprint to what every pack leader should be like, what a true Alpha should be like.”
His Adam's apple bobs as he pushes some hair out of my face. “Are you trying to get me all choked up right before we bond?” he says and I laugh, shaking my head.
