“I could kill him,” he offers softly, and I laugh. He’s clearly serious, and I love him for it. But I want Toth alive and submitting to me, not dead and useless.
“That won’t be necessary, but if anything changes, I’ll let you know.”
Elvor nods his head, and we just spend some time being in each other’s presence, me sitting on his lap and him with his hands wandering up and down my body. I feel more tired on Earth than I’ve ever have living in Hell, and Elvor must notice.
“The mortal realm is exhausting,” he says.
“Is it strange that I’m kind of ready to go back to Hell?”
“It’s home,” he says plainly, and it’s the first time I realize that he’s completely right. It didn’t take long for Hell to become the place I feel most comfortable. I don’t think I was ever meant to exist in this realm.
Judd enters the room, looking sheepish and nervous. I give Elvor a soft kiss and tug on Judd’s wrist once he’s in reach. “You can give Elvor a goodnight kiss too, if you want.”
Judd’s cheeks heat, but he leans down nonetheless. Elvor places a large hand on the back of Judd’s thigh as they kiss softly. It’s adorable, and I wish we could portal back to Hell for the night to sleep in Elvor’s bed. But portalling through realms is draining. I still wonder how Toth did it so easily.
I keep that question for another day, maybe tomorrow, as I lead Judd to the largest bedroom in the suite.
I’ve decided that since I’ve never had sex in this body, I’m basically a born-again virgin, and well… tonight, Judd is going to take my v-card. He’s been sweet, loyal, and eager to please. Plus, Elvor’s dick is massive. That’s not the kind of ride you take for your first time. We’re going to have to work up to that.
I’m imagining some very hot hate sex with Toth, but that’s no way to lose your virginity, either. Judd is the perfect option. Actually, he’s just perfect, and I know he’ll be an absolute gentleman. I’m not sure if he’s just generally nervous or if he can read my intentions for the night, but after I shut the door and push him against it, there’s no doubt in his mind about what’s going to happen.
Chapter15
Why do I always want to please Mara so badly?
It’s like every fiber in my being just wants to make her happy, for me to be the person who puts a smile on her face. I’m not mad about the new change to my life. I haven’t felt the need to take whatever I have available and zone out. I’m content just being in her presence, no extra substances required.
It might not be the healthiest adjustment in addictions, but I can’t help but think that this one is a little more beneficial to my mental well-being.
I feel alive for the first time in my entire existence. So, I really don’t give a shit about why Mara suddenly became the center of my world. I just have to figure out how to keep her there.
My biggest fear is that Mara will get bored with me and move on. Elvor and Toth bring so much more to the table than I do. I’m just about as basic as a demon can be when it comes to strength and my political power in Hell.
I’m not sure what she sees in me. I just hope she doesn’t change her mind.
Mara pushes me against the door as soon as it closes behind us.
“You were so good today,” she praises, gripping the hem of my shirt and pushing it up my chest. With shaking hands, I help her remove the shirt before she drags her nails down my abdomen and takes in all of my tattoos. Really, my face and parts of my legs are the only places I don’t have ink covering my skin.
My skin never felt like mine and covering it up felt like armor, like I was protecting myself.
“Do you have an empty space for my name somewhere?” she asks, completely serious.
“Wherever you want it,” I tell her honestly. It would be my most prized piece of ink.
“Good,” she replies, grabbing my belt and holding me close to her while she walks backwards towards the bed. “You know how I told you this body is relatively new?”
“Yeah,” I say, trying to breathe normally and not seem like a total loser as she sits on the bed, crossing her legs.
“There’s one thing I haven’t done yet.”
“What?” I swallow as I ask it.
“I need to lose this corporeal body’s v-card,” she answers.
“You want to do that with me?” I question lamely.
“Hellishly so,” she confirms with a wicked smirk.
