“I can’t believe I never came to one of these,” Judd says, and Mara looks at him with sad eyes.
“What should we do now?” Mara asks, not dwelling on why Judd has never come to this event or even recognizing this transcendent effect she has on both of us.
“No offense, but the thought of going back to your room at the manor sounds horrifying,” Judd admits, making Mara roll her eyes.
I’m not sure of the temperature of her relationship with her father, but I plan on finding out. I like Lucifer; I think he’s a fair leader, but it’s clear Mara holds resentment. If she asked me to help her start an uprising, I’d have no choice but to do as she requested.
“Well, where do you two live?” Judd winces, and I know that he lives in the city, in some shitty, bug-infested apartment. Seeing as I basically run the pits and can do what I please, my situation is a bit different.
“My place,” I offer, grabbing both of their wrists and portalling back to my quarters.
Chapter11
Iwish I could truly express how fun tonight was. Not only was it the best date I’d ever been on, even if it was the only date I’d ever been on, but it was the most fun I’ve had… ever.
When I was in my born body, I never got to have fun. And then when I was possessing people to survive, that’s all I did, hopping from one body to the next to stay alive while scheming my next plan.I’ve never truly been able to sit back and enjoy an experience like this… as me or with people who want to be in my company.
Tonight was magical, and I’ve never been allowed to just be a woman who has fun before. Judd and Elvor make it so easy. I already knew I wanted to make them mine before the night started, but after this evening, it’s clear that they belong to me, and there’s no escaping my clutches.I don’t feel guilty about it either; they’re lucky to be owned by me, and I’ll treat them just as sweetly as they do me.
Elvor portals us to his home, and I’m actually quite shocked by the luxury of it. The room is hot, and I imagine it’s because he lives in the pits. His bed is massive enough to fit four Elvors in the bed. The sheets are a dark blue, and he has what looks like a homemade quilt on top of the bed. The rest of the room is filled with books, a fireplace, and a deep-set lounge chair.
Judd and I are both taking the room in as Elvor stokes the fireplace while looking between us. I wonder what words he’s trying to gather up, and instead of forcing him to speak, I break the silence.
“Do you have anything to drink here, big guy?” He looks relieved, and he nods his head, going into the attached room.
“I guess I thought he just didn’t like speaking to people, not that he has a hard time talking?” Judd ponders out loud.
“He talks a little more when it’s just him and me. Just give him some time and I’m sure he’ll get more comfortable,” I tell him sweetly.
“Tonight has probably been the best night of my life,” Judd tells me shyly.
“Mine too.”
His eyes bore into mine with a devotion that I’ve craved for all of my life, and I stare right back at him. How long have I longed for this affection and intimacy with someone else? My whole life. I want him to want me so deeply that the thought of not being around me makes him sick. I want him to fall so in love with me that no other person matters even a fraction as much as I do. I’m not sure if he can sense my thoughts or if he just knows what I want.
But when his hand comes up to cup the back of my head, and his lips touch mine, I feel at peace. I have to stop the flood of emotions that try to fill me. All I’ve wanted my whole life is for someone to care about me, to take care of me, and love me.
The way Judd kisses me is both submissive and adoring. He isn’t kissing me beyond any other fact than he wants me, that he likes me, and he finds me beautiful. Our lips part, and I’m impressed when he slides his pierced tongue in my mouth. The kiss is sensual and sweet, just like him.
I can’t believe I came strolling into Hell, just wanting my body to find the dark pleasures of Hell. Not when I can have this, when I can have feelings behind the physical intimacy.
Bats flap wildly in my stomach over the kiss and how good it makes me feel. My hands are on his toned abdomen, and his stomach flinches. I like that he’s nervous. It’s clear that Judd wants to please me, and I like that even more.
I want him to be putty in my hands.
His hand at the back of my head tangles in my hair, and I smile against his lips, loving that Judd isn’t as delicate as he sometimes seems. His lips turn up during our kiss, and I break away so I can look at his face.
I never knew it could be like this: sweet, playful, and admiring.
I’m memorizing every detail of Judd’s beautiful face when Elvor clears his throat. Judd and I both turn to look at the large fae demon who is holding a wine bottle and glasses in his hand.
His voice is low, but when he speaks, his tone trembles down my spine. “Don’t stop,” he says. Sitting down in his lounge chair, he places the items on the floor and relaxes into the chair. He looks like a fucking king.
Judd blinks a few times, looking between Elvor and me.
“You heard him,” I tell Judd plainly, and he crashes his lips back to mine. I don’t think I’ve been the only one starved from the endearment of someone else’s touch. The way Judd kisses me is like he needs his lips on mine more than he needs to breathe.
I could kiss Judd forever. I feel so alive and vibrant around him. Judd is just so much fun. He makes me feel special. I’ve spent so much time feeling different and alone. Judd kisses me like I haven’t lived a vast lifetime of loneliness. He makes me feel like a girl who’s falling for the bad boy with tattoos and piercings in her teenage years. I feel like I could find who I truly am as a person with Judd and Elvor. Toth still lingers in the back of my mind, though. And I don’t know why I want him to want me so badly. I have two men in front of me who will bow down and give me everything.
