Blair has fucking everything; she had a dad growing up, she has her magic, she has a devoted boyfriend and cousin, plus her own business. And let’s not discount that she’s had a body that has been completely hers this entire fucking time.
I had no parents, no direction, no one who put me first.
Maybe that feeling from earlier was indeed jealousy.
“Why have children at all?”Blair interrupts, and Lilith and I take a sip of our drinks at the same time. It’s a solid question. She gets one point for giving our dad shit, even if I feel like I’m the one who should really be holding the inquisition here.
“I know you don’t want to hear this all right now, but I do love you. I would do anything for you and your sister. I thought that by letting you live your life out on Earth, I was doing the best thing for you. If people knew I had offspring living in a different dimension, they would see you as my weakness, and I couldn’t allow you to become a target.”
“Why did you come back for every birthday, then?” Blair demands, and I take it back.This witch got birthday gifts and visits and is still complaining?Yet, I keep my mouth quiet. It’s time to observe, look like an obedient daughter. The one who is grateful to be in Hell and be like my oh-so-powerful daddy.
“I needed to make sure your body could hold your demon half. So every birthday, I bestowed my favor on you so that you would be safe,” he explains. Fair point, considering I lost my goddamn body, yet no one gave a shit… besides Beelzebub.
I don’t like how complicated my feelings have gotten since becoming corporeal. I kind of miss the general madness and not having to care so much. Right now, it feels like I could drown myself in all of the emotions I’m feeling. It’s confusing, sickening, really.
“But not for Mara?” Blair asks, and I look down. I don’t want her to see my insecurity over the fact that she’s clearly the favorite.
“I didn’t know. I would like for you to stay in Hell with me, Mara. So that we can get to know each other better.” I smile at Lucifer. The first part of my plan, making Hell my home, has been achieved.
“Blair, I would like you to stay as well. But I would understand if you are not ready for that. Either way, I would like to show you how you can embrace your demon side. I believe there are some things I can do to permanently make your body able to handle both the witch and demon inside of you.” How about no, send her back to Earth with her demon boy toy. It’s time for me to get the time with my father that I deserve.
“I don’t have my magic right now,” Blair admits, and I have to hold back a smile. I obviously already knew this. It’s why she was easy to possess. But is it wrong that I just don’t want her to have anything better than what I have?
“You what?”
“The council—” Blair starts.
“Fucking cunts,” I hear my father mutter, and my eyebrows rise. “I’d like to show you my eagerness to be a better father by getting your magic back.”
Suddenly, Blair and my father are gone. Dax looks uncomfortable as he downs his drink from across the table and begins to eat in silence.
No one knows what to say. At least we’re not talking about how I tried to possess Blair anymore. That has definitely gotten old.
“So, what’s your favorite thing to do in Hell?” I ask. Dax looks like he would rather crawl into a hole than answer me, but Lilith is polite enough.
“I enjoy the Black Lake. The banquet hall in the manor hosts some fun parties, as well as some other clubs right outside of the grounds.”
“How do you get there?”
“Mostly portalling,” she replies.
“I haven’t done that in this form yet,” I say with honesty, but I know it won’t be a challenge. If anything, portalling while possessing a human is the true test of skill.
“We can work on it this evening if you’d like.”
“I’d love that,” I tell her with a smile, and Dax clears his throat awkwardly. It doesn’t take long for Blair and my father to reappear in the formal dining room. She’s all shiny and new and perfect. Her and her stupid boyfriend embrace, and my dad talks about how much he loves us and wants us near him.
Time to act like the stupid little girl acting for forgiveness.
“Blair?”
“Yes?” she asks.
“I would like to spend some time with you too. Not right now, but maybe after I’ve been in this body a few days?” Father wants his two precious babies to get along. Well then, I’ll play the part beautifully.
“As long as you don’t hurt me or anyone I care about, I think that will be fine.” I simply can not make that promise, so I divert to a different topic.
“Lilith is going to teach me how to portal today!” I say excitedly, and my father’s smile widens. Yup, that was the right move.
