He’s sitting casually in a chair. “It’s not your fault. It’s Beelzebub and Lucifer’s fault.”
Elvor shakes his head. “Rules.”
I wave him off, not giving a shit about any rules. “I’m going to kill that rat-fucker one day,” I tell Elvor, and he nods in agreement.
“I’ll help,” he says, and I smile.
“At least one man in this fucking hellhole gets it.”
I look around the room, which is clearly a torture room in the pit, but Elvor doesn’t seem to have any plans to torture me. I stand, wanting to leave this place, leave Hell. It feels like I can’t fucking breathe being here. “Can I portal from here?” I ask him, and he shakes his head no. “Great.”
I breathe in and out, reminding myself that I can’t break here, in a fucking torture room with Elvor, but fuck if I’m not close. There are three taps on the door, and I glare at the wall, assuming it’s Lucifer. One of the last people I want to see. He was in the middle of promising me the world, and then… then he abandoned me.It feels like everyone leaves me.I have to push down my emotions about Diana. This is not the time or the place to really let today’s events sink in.
I’m sure in some small part of my brain, I know there’s a reason for Lucifer doing what he did, but this is not something you do to someone you ‘supposedly’ care about. This isn’t a way to treat someone you want to ‘give the world to’.
Fortunately for me, it’s not Lucifer; it’s Kas standing in the doorway, and I let out a sigh of relief.
“Where have you been?” I ask her. She just sighs and rolls her eyes.
“There’s been a new reason to not stick around Hell. You want to get out of here or what?” She looks over at Elvor, and he shrugs. “We’re going to have to make it look convincing,” she warns, and Elvor smiles as she punches him in the gut, making his chair rock backwards. “Give me that rope, will ya?” Kas asks me. I hand it to her, and she wraps it around Elvor's body. He gives us a small smile, and she kisses the top of his head.
“You’re the best, Elvor.”
“He’s going to be furious with you,” I say to Kas, worrying about the repercussions of her actions.
“Let him. I’m honestly doing him a fucking favor before he does anything else that qualifies as being a ‘complete fucking dumbass’,” she says. I can tell there’s a deeper story there, but I don’t pry.
“Elvor, are you sure you’re okay with this?” He nods and then tips his head towards the door.
“Let’s get the fuck out of here,” Kas says, gripping my arm and dragging me out the door before she portals us.
As soon as our feet hit the grass, the soft scent of salt and fresh air hits me. When it does, I can finally take a deep inhale and break. I fall to my knees, gripping fistfuls of dirt and grass in my hands as it all sinks in.
Diana’s limp, fallen form in front of me, her chest with a deep bleeding hole, and the feathers of her wings scattered around the banquet room. The mirror image of me dead and alone on the floor.
Don’t trust…
Don’t trust…
Don’t fucking trust who?Her last words ring in my head over and over. The two words she gave her life for, and yet they mean nothing. I needed to get out of Hell for many reasons, her last words being the biggest reason of all.What if she was warning me not to trust Lucifer?
I can’t believe I ever doubted her at the meeting, that I took her words at face value, not thinking that maybe she was also putting on a show, just like Lucifer.
She died in my arms at the hands of a demon. One of my kind killed her while others laughed and stared at her body like it was entertainment. Not like every piece of my afterlife was coming to a complete standstill.
I want revenge to be the foremost emotion that I’m feeling, but it’s not. As hard as I try to summon my hatred for Beelzebub, Lucifer, and all the people who smiled or laughed at her demise, I can't. All I feel is pure absolute anguish. My sobs wrack my body, and I feel Kas’ hand on my back.
“Come on, Lilith. Let’s get you inside.”
I wipe my eyes with the back of my wrists and stand, wrapping my arms around myself as I follow Kas into the beach house. The home is beautiful, I’m sure, but I barely pay attention as Kas leads me down a hallway to a bedroom. It’s green, just like the one in Hell. Nowhere near as lavish and nice, but it is cozy.
She pulls back the patchwork quilt, and I lie down in the bed on my side. Kas opens the window and leaves. All I’m left with is the sound of waves and my grief.
I bring the blanket all the way up to my nose while my mind just keeps picturing Diana on the floor. I’m riddled with guilt knowing that she didn’t know what was coming and spent her final moments trying to warn me. She didn’t deserve that. She should have happily lived her life in Heaven, not worrying about me. Yet again, I feel like I failed my sister.
It’s at that moment that being immortal hits me, and I remember that I’ll be spending the rest of my existence alone. Without Diana in my life, time means nothing to me. The thought of living forever without the promise of what Lucifer and I could have been or without Diana makes me feel like I’m in a void that I’ll just have to figure out living in.
“Come on, bitch. You’ve got to get out of bed,” Kas complains, and my answer is a swift shake of my head.
