I reach out and touch his arm. “Mikael.”
“Don’t. It’s better that we don’t start anything. Maybe in a few years. Maybe when I’m better.” I don’t even notice the lift is back at the bottom of the hill, missing most of the ride from staring at Mikael and taking in all his fears. Most of which aren’t completely wrong. I mean, I have the same fear of being abandoned by them as Mikael seems to have of me.
As he walks away, it’s when my temper flares, and I don’t think. I just grab a wad of snow and chuck it at his back.
“What the fuck?” he says as he spins around and glares at me.
“Yeah, what the fuck? Maybe in a few years?” I say to him with irritation in my voice. What am I supposed to do? Just sit on my hands and wait patiently for him to come to me after he’s done playing hockey?
“That’s what I said.”
“A few years of me, what? Getting fucked by other Alphas during my heat?” He growls and stomps toward me.
“That’s enough.” He points at my chest, and I give him one of his scowls right back.
“Oh, what? You don’t like the idea of me fucking other Alphas?”
“Charlotte, don’t push me.” He growls my name, and it’s hot. I want to toss this sexy asshole into the snow and kiss and lick him everywhere.
“No, don’t pushme. You don’t even speak to me. You glare at me and grunt and tell me you don’t want this right now. But you can’t have it both ways, Mikael. You either want this, or you don’t. Figure it the fuck out, because I’m going to get to know Anders and Eli. If we get to know each other is up to you. If you’re okay running away from your scent match, that’s fine. But I’m not running away from mine.”
I want to crunch more snow over his perfect head, but I wouldn’t be able to reach. And as mad as I am at him, I wouldn’t dare to throw snow on that perfect face.
Eli and Anders are waiting for me. I’m glad they didn’t interrupt.
“Tubing?” Eli asks.
“Yeah, let’s go.”
“Everything okay?” Anders asks. I tug at his jacket and bring him down for a kiss. I might look back at Mikael and see him sulking. But I don’t really care. If he doesn’t want to explore this while we can, so be it. I have two scent matches willing to put in the work, and right now that’s all I can ask for.
“It will be,” I say as we break the kiss, and he smiles down at me.
Chapter sixteen
Tubingwasablast,especially when I sat on Eli’s lap, and he was super hard the whole trip down. Having that power over an Alpha is something that I never truly understood. I’ve had sex with Alphas, but this flirting and intimacy isn’t something I’ve really experienced before, and I love it.
I’m proud of myself for not letting my conversation with Mikael bring me down for the rest of the night. Tonight is about me getting to know Anders and Eli more. And by more, I want to be touched, and I sure as hell want to touch them. It’s been days since Anders climbed through my window, and that was just light petting. I need and want more. They’ve both been perfect gentlemen, but I’m totally ready to test their limits tonight.
My mom already knows to not expect me home, and we ate at the lodge before heading back to the guys’ cabin. I’m still cold from being out in the snow all afternoon and shiver when we hang out in the living room.
“Cold,Kulta?”
“Yeah, a bit.”
“Hot tub?” Eli suggests. Yes, hot tub. I don’t have a bathing suit. Let’s all get naked!
“It’s not a sauna, but it will do. You up for it, Charlotte?”
“Sounds great.”
“I’ll get towels,” Eli says.
“I’ll be up in my room,” Mikael says. Though I expected it, it’s not any less disappointing.
Anders turns on the back deck light, and in complete bare feet, he turns on the hot tub and removes the cover, then comes back into the cabin.
“Drinks?” he says, arching an eyebrow, and I nod. He looks so damn good, his dark blond hair ruffled from his hat and the white T-shirt that clings to his body. Anders pours three drinks and takes them outside, putting them on the edge of the hot tub. Every time he opens the door, a cold chill rushes through. “Do you… uh… want something to wear?”
