I just needed her. That was it. The omega who came to me when I felt abandoned, the person who chose me over everyone else. Not our fucking alphas, who couldn’t even step up for the simplest fucking things.
“Go the fuck away,” I growled as the door creaked behind me. “Brandy’s sleeping.”
“Which is the perfect time for me to visit,” Sin said, his stupid buffed Oxford browns clicking on the wooden floor as he walked over.
I should have kept my pins in instead of letting my hair hang loose because Brandy liked running her fingers through it.
I’d been keeping my anger in check around my alphas. It was easy when Brandy was awake, but as soon as she drifted off, the rage came back, even worse than Cas’s. Even when Brandy’s nose twitched and she shifted her head, it was enough to help meswallow it. It pissed me off that her shoulders relaxed as vanilla brushed the room. As if Sin was all she needed, even though he had treated her worse than Caspian, who mauled her nonstop for a week.
“You know the best time to visit?” I asked coldly as I turned to look at him. “Fucking never.” He looked so proper in his butler suit and his smooth white hair, and purple eyes. I used to love how prim he looked, and it made me proud to be with a guy who could verbally slash through anyone who got in his way. But it didn’t matter that he was fucking dripping with need to hold Brandy, I wasn’t letting him close.
Even with how much love he was sending her and how he wrung his hands in front of him as nerves bounced around his body, I couldn’t let him touch her.
“You’re not her alpha,” I hissed. “Caspian is barely her alpha. If you gave even a sliver of a shit about us, you wouldn’t have left her there to fuckingdie.” I ended with a snarl, but I gasped as fear gutted me. No matter how many people I had to hurt to get to where I was with any business, I’d never felt like that in my whole life. I never thought I’d have to hold my mate in my arms as she faded away from me, all because of my fucking alphas.
“I needed Melanie to know that she was making the right choice. I slept with her without telling her what was happening to us, and I hurt her too many times to count. I didn’t want to force her into a situation where I had taken something else away from her.”
We had had this conversation so many times in the past week, but it just would go through Sin’s thick fucking head. He didn’t understand; he didn’t get it.
“Are you really so dead inside that you didn’t feel anything when you saw her there like that? You left us, Sin. You abandoned us.”
“I trusted you could make it through. And that Caspian would pull himself out of his rogue state for you both.”
“You didn’t trust shit!” I snarled. I was shaking, and I had to whip my hand away from Brandy in case I dug too hard into her skin. I screamed and raged at Sin since we murdered Zania, and he kept looking at me like he always did. A blank stare that meant nothing.
“I don’t give a fuck about your shitty regret. If Brandy wakes up now, she’s not going to feel a thing from you. A tiny glimmer, maybe, but I won’t let you bond with her. I’ll block you from her until she can’t even remember what you feel like.” I wasn’tthatgood at keeping them away, but I’d had a ton of practice in the past week.
“You cannot keep her from me forever. And I hope she won’t let you either. I want to be with her as well, no matter what I’ve done to her. I love her as much as I love you, and I’m here to protect you both, no matter what you believe.”
“Why the hell do you think I’m going to buy those excuses? Get the fuck out, Sin.”
“I won’t leave until I’ve had space to talk to her. And I intend to wait until she wakes up.”
“So you could get all the credit for watching over her? Not a chance.”
“I haven’t had a moment alone with her since Caspian bit her, and I want to talk to her about what’s happened so far. I won’t pretend I’ve made a mistake, but hiding her away will do nothing for us as a pack.”
I wanted to yell at him again, because we weren’t a pack. Not anymore. Calling us a pack was a joke.
“You talk to her when she’s ready to talk to you.”
“After you’ve twisted her mind by filling it with your own thoughts and opinions?” he bit back.
I snarled as I tried to control myself. My instincts were telling me to leap for him, tear at his neck, gouge his fucking eyes out. I wish I wasn’t back in the place where I couldn’t stand to look at my own alpha because it hurt so fucking much. I thought that would end once Camille was out of the picture.
“Shut. Up. Right now. You think Brandy can’t think for herself?”
“I think that she’s an omega who is so greatly affected not only by Caspian’s bite, but by everything we’ve put her through. And she needs space before she decides whether to welcome me as her alpha or not.”
“Are you fucking stupid?” I shouted. “She already has me and Caspian. There’s no thinking or considering. Our pack bond is going to fucking crack if you don’t bite her soon.”
Sin sighed as his head dipped, and more pain surged from him. It was so strong that it cut through me, and I had to bite my lip to stop myself from whining. The agony that weighed on him shook me up, but I wasn’t falling for it. I wasn’t letting this go just because I wanted to escape from the pain.
“She either cleaves from Caspian or you bite her. What do you think she’d want if we asked her?”
Sin opened his mouth to reply, but I shot up a hand. “You know what? Forget it. I’m done, Sin. I’m done with your bullshit and with Caspian’s. Just leave us alone, and we’ll come out when we’re ready.”
He stared at me, his gaze boring deep into my flesh, feeding all his swirling pain into me, like that was going to make me change my mind.
