Tears ran down my face as I wrapped my arms around them. “I missed you too… I promise we’ll hang out lots.”
We stayed that way for several minutes, just enjoying being together. “Would you boys like to play a few more rounds?”
“Yes!” We both shouted, and Ellery climbed over the bars. I began to do the same, but was stopped when Daddy grabbed me by my waist and lifted me out. “You were adorable, sweetie. Did you have fun?” My face blushed red hot, and Daddy kissed the tip of my nose, making me giggle. “Yes, Dada, so fun! Again! Again!”
Ellery made their way to the center of the room and tied theirown blind fold. I pointed over at the bookshelf, and Daddy helped me place the egg. Once we were seated, Ellery spun around and then began moving.
My hips kept wiggling in excitement as I guided Ellery to the egg. Ellery turned toward the bookshelf, and my body thrummed with excitement as I cheered that they were getting warmer. Ellery rushed ahead, bumping their head on the wall. The impact wasn’t super hard, but my body froze with concern for my friend.
Ellery busted out laughing and rubbed their forehead. My eyes widened in shock, but then my head fell back, and I roared with laughter. My body shook, and tears ran down both our faces as we laughed hysterically.
Suddenly, my body froze, and panic crawled up my spine. Hot tears welled up in my eyes and streamed down my face as I realized I was sitting in Daddy’s lap, soaked with what I’m sure was pee. I was laughing so hard I didn’t even feel it happening.
Daddy’s hand rubbed my back, and he pulled me further into him. I buried my face in his chest, too embarrassed to look at his or Ellery’s face.
I should’ve known better because not even seconds later, I felt Ellery’s hand softly touch my shoulder. “Bestie, what’s wrong. Are you okay?’
Daddy kept rubbing small circles on my back and kissed the top of my head. “Hey, sweetheart, I promise it’s going to be okay. Can I explain the situation to Ellie, or should I ask them to leave the room?”
Through my sobs, I was barely able to tell him that I was okay with telling Ellery. Sure, I was embarrassed, but I knew myfriend loved me, and it would be cruel to worry them and send them away with no explanation just because I was embarrassed.
“Ellery, as you know, with me, Tristan has been regressing younger than usual. He’s always wanted to wear diapers, but wanted to take it slow. Before we had a chance to try them, he had an accident. I think it’s all just been too overwhelming, especially with feeling like he has to go all in with diapers every time he’s little in case he has an accident. He was also hoping that not wearing one would help him not go as deep, so he could keep up with you.”
Ellery’s hand lifted from my shoulder, and then I felt their presence shift to the side of the chair. I lifted my head from Daddy’s chest, my eyes meeting theirs. “I’m sorry you’re going through that, bestie. You’ve always dreamed of wearing a diaper with your Daddy, and you know I support that… we want you to have fun and be comfortable, and if that’s with a diaper, that’s perfectly okay. And for the record, I love seeing you so small and carefree with your Daddy. It makes me so happy, so please don’t hide away. Embrace how it feels to be cared for that way and forget everything else. I can tell he loves you so much; nothing is going to change that.”
My sobs increased as they continued. Ellery and I have been inseparable for the whole five years of our friendship, and sometimes it’s scary how well they know my brain. Unable to speak through my cries, I held out a hand toward Ellery and rubbed the inside of their palm with my thumb, letting the gentle motion soothe me.
Once my cries subsided, I pulled back from Daddy and released Ellery’s hand. “Thank you, Ellie. I’m so happy I met Daddy, but it’s only been a few weeks, and change is hard. I never expectedto fall so hard and fast, and it was a little scary, and I may have overthought everything a little bit.”
Ellery smiled warmly for a few seconds before mischief filled their eyes, and they feigned shock. “My bestie overthink? He would never!”
My laugh was hoarse from all the crying, but it felt good to be laughing again after feeling so tense. All the tension from earlier left my body, and I became super aware of how wet and uncomfortable I was, and it sent me hurtling back into little space.
“Dada, I feel icky.”
“I know, sweetheart, but it’s okay. I’m going to get you all cleaned up.”
Best Daddy ever.
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Daniel
My pants and shirt were soaked by Tristan’s accident, but I couldn’t care less because my boy was in my lap. I knew this was a big moment between him and Ellery, so I stayed quiet and offered my support. Once they were done and my boy was laughing again, I knew it was time to get both of us cleaned up.
“Ellie, would you mind waiting in the living room while I get us cleaned up. Feel free to turn on the TV and grab the coloring books, and we’ll be back shortly.”
“Okay!”
Once Ellery left the room, Tristan turned his face to me. “Dada hewp… icky.”
Wanting to raise his spirits and hopefully ease his embarrassment, I gasped in mock horror. “Oh no, it looks like we both got attacked by the sog monster this time.”
Tristan’s sweet giggles filled the room as I carried him out of the playroom and into the bathroom. Reaching into the shower, I turned on the water and then placed Tristan down. He wiggled in discomfort as I peeled his wet clothes off him, and then I did the same for myself. Once we were both undressed, I took his hand and pulled him into the shower with me.
Tristan was a puddle of goo as I scrubbed down his body with soap. He didn’t even react when I cleaned his groin. Not that I would have done anything if he had, but the absence of a reaction told me my boy was worn out from all the earlier excitement. Tristan stood under the water with a blissful expression as I made quick work of scrubbing myself down.
Grabbing some fluffy towels, I dried us both off and bundled him up in them so he wouldn’t get cold while I got dressed. I placed my fuzzy Tristan burrito on the edge of the bed and got dressed in some sweats and a black t-shirt.
