Marco: Cum in my hand Jy. shoot it between us.
My balls are so tight that I throw my head back and give myself one more pull and spill all over my chest. Ropes of my release paint across my torso and drip down my hand. Lightheaded and amazed, I take a picture of the evidence and send it to him.
Marco: same. good distance.
Jay: Thx.
Marco: Ar ypu ging to leave or willl ypu let me hold you?
Why is he typing so strange?
Jay: What if I wanna hold u?
Marco: Ypu can
Jay: R u ok? U don’t normally spell words wrong.
Marco: Im okjust a little drunk lol
Fuckme!My sated and blissful body stiffens and my blood feels like it’s been set on fire. He’s drunk? This wasn’t the real him.Goddammit.How could I let myself do this? He’s going to wake up and regret everything. Even if he forgets, he has the evidence in these messages. The evidence that I’ve admitted to wanting him before. Thepictureevidence that he’s made me come to his words.
Our friendship is ruined all because of me. All because I couldn’t resist him. This whole thing was a lie. The sliver of hope he let me feel in the last thirty minutes—of the possibility of anus—is gone. Obliterated.
Jay: I didn’t know u were drunk. I wish u would have told me.
Marco: Im sorry
Jay: Why don’t u go to sleep and we’ll talk tomorrow.
Marco: You dnt wanna keep talkin?
Jay: U need to sleep. TTYL
Marco: Jay its ok ican stay up
Jay: Goodnight Marco
The pain is too deep for me to torture myself any longer with him, so I take the lesson I learned from Cora, if that’s even her real name, and I block him.
Chapter 32
Oh My God, I’m An Idiot
Marco
One And A Half Years Ago
Message Failed to Send.
Message Failed to Send.
Message Failed to Send.
Istareatmycomputer screen like it’s grown two heads—which it kind of has. My vision is getting a little blurry. Why aren’t my messages going through to him? I check my internet connection and it’s fine.
Huh.
I feel a little cheated from my virtual cuddle. I want to keep talking to him about what just happened. Not only did we cross a huge barrier in our friendship, but I just sailed through some uncharted waters and I’d like to talk to my best friend about it.
