Subject:HI
Happy New Year,Aaron! :)
-Rube
Chapter8
January
January7,2009
From:[email protected]
Date: January 7, 12:01p.m.
Subject:Stuff
Ruby,
I can’t wait until I’m out of here... It’s finally hitting me hard. This happens every tour, but this time it’s worse than usual and happening earlier. Everyone’s been on edge lately. We got woke up two days ago when someone started shouting by the tents in the middle of the night. A soldier had his AR with him and was pacing… ranting and yelling… crying…. I don’t know how to describe what it was like exactly. Scary if I’m going to be honest. Everybody’s cried at least once when they’re out here… It’s just the way it works. When the homesickness gets bad or when things are happening back home, that’s “normal,” but not like that. Not like that soldier. Like there’s no hope left. I don’t know. I could go the rest of my life without seeing that happen again. It really fucks with my head seeing in person how close everybody can be to reaching that breaking point when you’re out here… you try not to think about it, but it happens. You’re fine until… you’re not. And you always kind of worry and wonder if it’ll happentoyou.
I can tell you’retrustworthy,Ru. :]
I haven’t contacted my exes. Chances are I won’t. I’ve thought about it. I don’t want to spend my time calling them because I don’t have any other way of communicating. I doubt I scarred any of them. It wasn’t like we were in love oranything.
^^^Does that sound like a shitexcuse?
What’s wrong with meeting a guy atchurch?
Like I told you, just because I’m done doesn’t mean you need to be. Maybe you’ll find a good relationship. I hopeyoudo.
If you wouldn’t mind sending some flea shampoo, I can pay you back when I get home on break. I’d ask a friend, but it’d be a month before they got aroundtoit.
Your entire family is out of control. Who brings jello shots to Christmas and then gets drunk? For real, I think I was jealous for a sec. The picture of your brother was hilarious. Did you that draw the “tick” onhisface?
Talking bad to your sister is how you get her to do things? I can see someone with a strict diet taking their anger outonfood.
I just want to do a whole lot of nothing for those two weeks of RR leave. I want to take a real vacation once I’m back homeforgood.
I hope you’re feelingbetter.
-Aaron
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From:[email protected]
Date: January 14, 2009 1:11p.m.
Subject:Hey
Ruby,
I haven’t heard from you. You allright?
