Now Jacob could understand this concern and knew how to answer. “Both Jesse and I find the Daddy lifestyle attractive. Both identify as Daddies. It was weird at first. We’re twins. I thought that chances were so rare that it made me question why. Eventually I came to accept it as fact.”
“Your brother recently got engaged, didn’t he? I saw that on one of the gossip shows.”
“He did. Lake is the perfect for my brother. They’ll be very happy together,” Jacob replied.
“But his partner is a little?”
“Yes,” Jacob confirmed. He wasn’t telling James anything that would embarrass Lake. When Jesse and Lake visited, James would see for himself.
“And you want a little too? Or do you have one?” James asked. “Is it okay to ask that? I don’t want to pry.”
“I don’t have a little or a boy of my own,” Jacob answered. He ignored the other questions. “I haven’t met the right person.”
“But you know how to be a Daddy?” James pressed.
“Yes. I’ve played at clubs and have dated a few men that I hoped would turn into something special. It hasn’t worked out for me.” Jacob wasn’t someone that most boys wanted for more than a few scenes. He was known as the brat tamer at clubs. Jacob didn’t mind the title but he wanted something more than what he’d found so far.
“Why not?”
Damn! How did Jacob explain. “There are different types of Daddies or Doms. Just like there are different types of littles, subs, and boys. I can find someone to…play with. That’s usually not a problem. It’s being in a relationship, making sure we’re both getting what we need, that has been an issue.”
“I wondered,” James said softly.
Jacob closed the remaining distance between them to lean against the rail. “Wondered what?”
“I have no desire to wear diapers,” James said. “I don’t think it’s weird or wrong. Michael loves it. I just don’t think it’s something I would ever want to do.”
“Abdl isn’t for everyone,” Jacob confirmed. “It’s just one aspect of age regression.”
“What’s adbbl?”
“Abdl,” Jacob corrected gently. “Adult baby/ diaper lover. Like most things in life, regression is a spectrum. You need to find what works for you. If you want to explore, I mean.”
“So if I don’t want to wear diapers or drink out of a bottle, I might still be a little?”
“You could be a middle or an older little,” he suggested.
“I don’t know what that means.” James’s voice held frustration.
“In age regression, a lot of people come together because of their needs. A Daddy might want a little who likes being a baby and who he could bathe, give a bottle to, put in a diaper. Some littles act more like toddlers. And middles are most likely someone who regresses around preteen age. Most couple find what works for them.”
James blew out a harsh breath. “This is just giving me more questions.”
Jacob winced. That wasn’t what he was trying to do. “I’m sorry.”
“No, it’s okay. I was looking for a quick answer and I’m starting to think there isn’t one.”
“There’s not,” Jacob offered. “Does it matter if you have all the answers?”
“What do you mean?”
Jacob held his hands up. “Please don’t get upset but what I’m getting out of this conversation is that you might be interested in exploring age regression.”
James slowly nodded.
“You’re comparing yourself to Michael. Michael is a younger little. You don’t have to do things the way he does. Just because he had two partners does that mean you should as well?” Jacob explained.
“I can’t even find one guy. I can’t imagine wanting two.”
