I run toward her, having no clue what I’ll say, but knowing I need to say it as quick as I possibly can.
Then, I realize, I can’t say anything at all. I’ll break down again if I do. For right now, I just need to hold her, to show her how sorry I really am.
When I get close enough, I wrap my arms around her and pull her into me, holding her as much as I can. Tears fall down my face that I don’t even try to hide. This entire time, I thought I fucked up so bad that she’d never forgive me. I don’t know if she will ever forgive me, but the fact that she’s here shows I have a sliver of a chance, and I plan on taking full advantage.
“I’m so sorry,” I finally am able to whisper. “I’m so unbelievably sorry that I reacted the way I did.”
“It’s okay.” She holds me tighter.
“No. It’s not. It will never be okay, and I’ll spend the rest of my life making it up to you. Proving to you that I am the man you deserve.”
“Silas, Myles called me. He told me why you freaked out.”
My entire body tightens. I’m not sure if I want to kick the living shit out of him or hug him.
“It’s going to be okay. There’s no reason to be scared,” she says, and a sob escapes my lips.
I drop to my knees, wrapping my arms around her waist and bringing her stomach to me. “I’m so sorry,” I say both to her and my unborn child. “I promise I’ll be the best dad possible.”
She lets out a sharp laugh. “So, you’re in for this?”
I look up at her in shock. “Fuck yeah, I’m in. I’m not going anywhere.”
“You could have fooled me,” she says with a laugh but a side of honesty as well, which I can’t blame her for one bit.
I stand and grab both of her hands. “Kara, I love you. I’ve loved you since the moment I first saw you on that stage. Ipromise I will be the best husband to you and dad to this baby and any other babies you want.”
“Whoa, husband, babies …” Her eyes go big. “Let me get used to the idea of this baby first.”
“I’m serious, Angel. Anything you want, I’ll do.”
She squeezes my hand. “Right now, I just need you to love me the same way I’ve fallen in love with you. That will be enough. The rest will fall into place.”
“Done.” I bring my lips to hers, kissing her softly, hoping she feels the same relief I do.
From this moment on, my life will be dedicated to never hurting her again and being the best dad possible.
30
Silas
I fluttermy eyes open when my alarm sounds, turning it off and pretending it didn’t sound at all since work is the last place I want to be right now.
Once I knew Kara forgave me last night and I had her back in my arms, I did not want to let her go. We might have slept the past few hours, but those feelings have not changed.
When I don’t move, she asks, “Don’t you have to get up?”
I hold her tighter. “Nope. Not yet.”
She laughs as she pushes me away from her. “Go to work.”
“Ugh,” I moan, but do as she said, then lean in to kiss her forehead before I go to hop in the shower.
While I’m there, all I can think about is how I’m going to be a dad. Me. The shock of it all is still so fresh, but now that I’ve taken it in and calmed my internal freak-out, I’m actually okay with it—excited even.
I know I’m going to wrap that kid in a bubble, and Kara is going to have to be patient with me as I work through my fears, but I think I’m going to be okay.
Once I’m out of the shower and standing at the sink, brushing my teeth, Kara walks up behind me, wrapping her arms around my waist and placing her head on my back.
