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Dear Mia,
My life is complete.I could stare at you all day long. Your little fingers and toes amaze me, and don’t get me started on your cheeks. I want to kiss them every second, they’re so round and cute. I couldn’t be happier. Even though nothing else is right, it actually is because of you, and I’ll never be able to thank youenough.
Totally smitten,
Mom
Connor
“Look at her,”Mackenzie whispers when I walk into the living room. Mia is asleep in her arms. “She’s perfect. Everything about her isperfect.”
I kiss her forehead before rubbing my hand softly over Mia’s head. She’s grown over these past four months, but she’s stilltiny.
“She really is. Have you been up for awhile?”
“She woke up around four, and I’ve been holding her ever since. I couldn’t bring myself to put her backdown.”
I laugh quietly. “You’re going to spoil her rotten. She needs to learn to sleep on herown.”
She shoos me off with agrin.
I whisper, “I love you,” before kissing her. “Just remember to take care of yourself too. Can I get youanything?”
Her headaches are worsening, but she says it’s nothing she can’t dealwith.
“I’m good. I have all I need righthere.”
“Okay, I’m going to hop in the shower.” I head back to ourbedroom.
My law firm gave me a month off to be with them but that time went by too fast. While I’m at work, she stays home getting to cuddle and play with Mia all day. I love that I can give her that opportunity without having to worry about money or anythingelse.
I’m about to pull down my boxers when I hear a loud bang and Mia crying at the top of her lungs. Running as fast as I can, I storm into the living room, where I see Mia on the floor and Mackenzie lying next to her on herside.
“Mackenzie,” I yell. “Baby, are youokay?”
I pick up Mia, comforting her but concerned about Mackenzie. Her eyes are rolled back in her head, and she’s trembling but otherwisestiff.
After placing Mia in the swing, I hold Mackenzie, begging for her to stop. The doctor told us seizures were a possibility but this is the first one, and I have no clue what todo.
Fear I never knew was possible washes through me as the woman I love helplessly convulses on the floor. Knowing there’s nothing I can do to help her leaves me feeling like a complete failure as herhusband.
Holding onto her tightly, I cry into her shoulder as I wait for her to come back tome.
Once she stops shaking, I rush to my phone and dial 911, telling the operator what happened while I pull Mackenzie onto my lap, holding her as close as possible to mychest.
After a few minutes her eyes open and panic sets in when she notices my tears and puffyeyes.
“Connor?” She rubs her head, closing her eyes briefly, then looking around the room, noticing she’s on thefloor.
There’s a knock on the door, and I move Kenzie to let them in. They run to her side, and all I see is fear and confusion written all over herface.
A paramedic tends to Mia as well, and it seems Mackenzie was able to protect her from any real damage. To be safe, we all get in theambulance.
On the way to the hospital, I call her parents and send a text to my friend Alan, briefly telling him what happened. He replies he’ll meet us there and my body welcomes the relief knowing he’ll be by myside.
Thankfully, we’ve completely mended our relationship and he’s been my guiding force through herillness.
