I shrug. "Good so far. I haven't really noticed anything yet. Since it's new, they don't really know what toexpect."
Tracy is the only person who knows the truth of where I go everyday. Tears form in her eyes that she quickly blinks away, so I change the subject to something way more exciting, for meanyway.
"Something's happened I want to tell you about," I state with agrin.
"Yeah?" She sits up, tucking her legs underneath her like she's bracing for the bignews.
"Something I never put on my list, because I didn't think it would ever happen in my wildestdreams."
Her eyes widen. "You're killing me. What are you talkingabout?"
"I think I have aboyfriend."
"Shut up!" She squeals like a little girl. "This quick? How? And how is this so big it wasn't on your list? You've had boyfriendsbefore."
I’m nervous as hell, but here we go. "I've had this massive crush on someone for years, and not only has he finally noticed me, but I think he really likesme."
"Whoa, are you serious? Who is this mystery guy you’ve kept secret fromme?"
"Don't be mad or weirded out...." I hold up my hands, ready to calm her down if needbe.
"Wait...." She tilts her head and holds up afinger.
I pause, squinting my eyes and scared for herreaction.
"No," she says, shaking her head. "Ew,no."
I nod and smile. "I've been so in love with him for manyyears."
"With my brother?" She stands, shaking her body to rid thethought.
I can't help but laugh. "Yes, and oh my god, it's been unrealand—"
"Stop." She waves her hands in the air. "I don't want to know." Sheshivers.
"Please say you're not mad," Iplead.
"I'm disgusted, yes, but mad?" She sighs. "No. It's just." She sits on the bed crossed-legged. "Does he know about… youknow?"
"No. I'm not sure he needs to knowyet."
She lets out a harsh breath. "Without getting too detailed, and please don't, tell me what's happened between you two. Is this a little fling orwhat?"
My eyes brighten at the memory of our conversation this morning. "I'm pretty sure it's more. We've spent every night together, and I stayed—" She holds up a hand, stopping me, and I chuckle. "Let's just say it's been really good, and we even talked about telling you and how he wants to pursue thisrelationship."
"Did he actually use the wordrelationship?"
"Well, no but we were using the termus."
She sags in defeat. "Mackenzie, you need to tell him. He doesn't dous,shit, he could really be into you. You need to tell him. He's my brother, Kenzie. I can't keep this from him. No matter how much he annoys the shit out of me sometimes, I love him, and I don't want to see him get hurt. He's already been through thatonce."
"I'll tell him. Just give me a few days. Let me enjoy this for a whilelonger."
I sigh, not wanting my high to go away yet. I’m being super selfish, but I don’t want to stop whatever we have going on. That’s not fair to me either, and I can see a ton of guys doing just that. Who wants to be with a sickgirl?
I stare into space, my high melting away almost instantly.Is Connor that kind ofguy?
"Hey. I'm sorry. I shouldn't have gone there. Even though I don’t understand what you see in him, I'm happy you're happy. But did you really say you'd had a crush on him for years?" sheteases.
