I smiled, doing my best to push away any doubts and just enjoy the moment. He pulled me off the ledge and sat down, guiding me back to his lap, and I snuggled against his chest as he held me close.
Suddenly, everything felt so surreal. A large part of me felt like we’d been together for months. He had become one of the most important people in my life, and being with him tonight felt so right. So normal.
And I wanted more. So much more.
Chapter Twenty-Six
LYLA
Tuesday 10:08 a.m.
Izzy: Lyla, how’s things going with Adam?
Me: It’s so complicated, and I don’t know what to do.
Mia: Complicated how?
Me: He gave me the best orgasm of my life in the jacuzzi last night but stopped things from going too far because we’re supposed to be takingthings slow.
Me: But now I don’t know if I even want to take things slow.
Me: I want him. Desperately. But I’m scared, and I have no idea how to tell him that.
Izzy: What are you scared of?
Me: What if it doesn’t work out?
Mia: I hate to be the one to point out the obvious at the risk of sending you spiraling. But girl, you guys have already crossed that line. There’s no going back to being just friends.
Izzy: Mia!
Nicole: She does have a point. Lyla, before you spiral, answer me this… Would you regret not taking a chance on seeing what the two of you could have?
Me: I don’t want to go back. I’m just scared of things not working out.
Izzy: Tell him that. He probably feels the same.
Me: I don’t know…he seems so confident. So sure about us.
Nicole: Or he just isn’t letting the what-ifs overpower how he feels about you.
Izzy: Everyone always has those fears in relationships. How have you dealt with them before?
Me: I haven’t. I’ve never really cared that much if the relationship worked out or not.
Izzy: So why is Adam different?
Me: Because he means so much to me. The thought of not having him in my life literally makes me sick to my stomach.
Izzy: ….
Me: Oh fuck.
Mia: Jesus. Took you long enough.
Nicole: Well, there ya go. Now you need to tell him all that.
Me: Any ideas on how I’m supposed to do that?
