“Hold up.” He jogged his sexy ass over and butterflies formed in my stomach when he smiled. He had perfect teeth with two gold linings around his teeth on the side. It reminded me of how Chris Brown had his.
Raul was much taller than me, and his chocolate complexion had me turned on. I loved a dark skinned man and the waves in his hair were fresh like he just left the barber shop. The brown sweat suit wasn’t tight and fit just right to show off his build. When he licked his lips I was ready to fuck him in my car.
“What’s your name?” Not knowing if giving him what he asked for mattered because a man as fine as him probably had tons of women, I went against my better judgement and gave it to him.
From that day forward, me and Raul spent countless hours on the phone; I even used my vacation time just to go away with him. He had a key to my house and my heart, yet for some reason he refused to consider me his woman. The only family of his that I’ve met was Cairo, Raul’s brother, their friend Felix and some of the other guys he hung around with.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying he had to claim me or giving him an ultimatum. I just wanted him to know that if there’s no title on us and he was free to do whatever, then the same applied with me. I’m not going to sit around waiting for him to decide what he wanted when I’ve been as loyal to him as I could be.
“What are you doing?” I asked Kat when she jumped in my car. I was so engrossed in how me and Raul met, I had no idea she came outside.
“It’s three in the morning and you’re leaving. You’re either going to drive by Raul’s house or someone you think he messing with. Therefore, as your bestie, it’s best for me to come.” Kat had on a pair of sweats, a T-shirt, some sneakers and her hair was pulled in a ponytail with a hat on top.
“Now let’s get this over with because you’ll have to bring me back home so I could get ready for work.” Pulling the seatbelt across her body to lock in all I could do was laugh. Kat was really my ride or die friend and I appreciated her more than she knew.
As I drove out her driveway, I noticed a blue car slowly ease out behind me. Not trying to scare myself by assuming someone was following us, I continued driving and kept my eye on the car.
Once I made it to the highway, the vehicle disappeared. Breathing a sigh of relief, I pressed down on the gas and damn near sped to Raul’s place. Kat wasn’t paying me any mind and I’m glad because she would’ve been the first to complain about how fast I was going. She drove slow as molasses which was why I hated when she drove. Kids on bikes would pass us on residential streets due to how slow she’d drive.
“I could never get over how beautiful his house is.” Kat never been inside but she dropped me off a few times.
“The inside is even better but we not here for that. Do you see any bitches?” Kat turned to me as I slowly crept down the street. Raul’s house had a huge yard and his house was pushed all theway to the back. That’s why I couldn’t get close enough to really see much and with security having a booth outside the gate, I couldn’t get out and use my binoculars either. He had me at a disadvantage and it kind of pissed me off.
“Now you know damn well I can’t see that far and bitch pay attention.” She jerked the steering wheel to the right so we wouldn’t hit an oncoming car. I was too busy stretching my neck over to the passenger side window, I wasn’t looking.
“My bad.” I pulled over down the street and took a deep breath.
“Sariah, I’m always gonna be here for you good and bad, right or wrong. But this is crazy.” I gave her a weird look because how was this crazy and she next to me.
“What I’m saying is, if you’re not a couple why be out here on stakeouts. Why not just tell him how you feel and if he didn’t want to be on the same page, then move on.” I understood where she was coming from and she was right.
Kat didn’t wear her heart on her sleeve like I did. She was strong, kept a wall up and matched any negative energy from a guy. It did shock me to see Cairo had her at a loss of words because her mouth was reckless too. I was the same but not when it came to Raul.
“You’re right. I mean we can co-parent this child together and?—"
“Hold up. Say what now?” Kat cut me off and forced me to turn around. I was staring out the window trying not to cry.
“I didn’t want to tell anyone because I wasn’t sure about keeping it.”My stomach wasn’t big and since I wore baggy clothes no one could tell.
“Are you serious? I’m your best friend; your sister and you couldn’t tell me.” Her response let me know how hurt she was over me keeping the pregnancy a secret.
“You don’t believe in abortions Kat and I didn’t want anyone talking me out of it.” She shook her head in disappointment.
“How far along are you?” She spoke with an attitude.
“Four months.” In a way I was happy but then again, what would I do with a kid. Me and my granny barely making it and I’ll never be a woman to chase a man to be around his child.
“FOUR MONTHS!!!”
“To be honest, I just found out the other day at the doctors. My periods are always light so I didn’t think about being pregnant.”
“I wanna smack you so hard right now but you’re carrying my niece or nephew so I’ll hold off until you deliver.” I laughed.
“We both know it’s too late to get rid of the baby at this point so what’s next.” Shrugging my shoulders, both of us jumped when there was a knock on the window.
“Oh shit. How did he know you were out here?” Kat asked the question on my head.
“Don’t you mean how did he know we were out here? You’re in the car too.” She waved me off and said to roll down the window while she came up with a lie.
