“Are you in great pain?” I reached for him as worry coursed through me.
“Don’t change the subject, Gus!” He clenched his fists in front of him, and I almost laughed at how cute he looked when he was angry. “I’ll have their heads!”
I jumped up. “No, please! Don’t!” Then I noticed his smirk. “Oh, you’re joking…”
He exhaled. “I could, though. I won’t allow anyone to hurt you, Gus. Even when the time comes when we are no longertogether. I’ll always make sure that you are… safe.” He dipped his gaze toward his closed fists. “You’re the father of my child,” he whispered. “That means something.”
“Thank you.” I knew what he was trying to say. That he appreciated our time together. That he, too, would remember it. But I wanted his words to mean more. If only they could mean what I so desperately wanted them to mean. That Seb would change the world for me. For us. But I knew that wasn’t possible.
Chapter 13
Sebastian
My tears flowed freely as I watched Gus sleep peacefully next to me. Why did he have to affect me like this? Why did he make me question everything? And why,damn him, did he make me feel things I had no idea were even possible?
I’d been a coward. Yes, I could admit that to myself. I should’ve just said what my heart had wanted me to say. That I would change things, and that I wanted Gus to stay here with me forever. Raise our son with me, always with me. Withus. But I’d been too afraid to promise him the one thing we both wanted.
So, I lay there, letting my feelings take over while I could do it in private. Gus didn’t deserve to see my tears. No, my alpha was too pure for that. He would, without a doubt, rush to comfort me, and that would only break both our hearts. I was the damn king, but I felt anything but powerful. Gus’ innocent question earlier had stirred something in me.‘But if the magic keeps me from harming you, then why can’t we be together? Why not?’Ihadn’t lied to him when I told him I didn’t know. It was just the way it was. It was my duty.
My heart ached watching his soft lips as he slowly inhaled and exhaled, lost in his dreams. I hoped they were good ones. I hoped that he dreamed of me, and of a version of a future we would never be able to have—happy and together.
I wiped my eyes and tried to get a little sleep myself. My heat was slowly easing toward the end, and I selfishly didn’t want to miss any seconds I had left with Gus. I placed my hand on his chest and felt comforted by the feel of his heartbeat. Then I closed my eyes and hoped for a good dream filled with a smiling alpha and his little omega.
I eyed the mirror as I stood naked in my bathroom, frowning at my bloated belly. Gus came over and caressed my stomach, his huge hand a comfort as he smiled tenderly down at me. “Do you think you’re pregnant?”
I already knew I was. How I knew was a mystery; I simply did. But if Gus wanted to protect his heart, he would likely leave as soon as the heat was over, and I was a selfish bastard, so instead I replied, “I don’t know. I think you might need to stay at the palace until we know for certain.”
His smile was blinding. “Really?”
I nodded, not missing the edge of hope in his voice.
“How long until you know for certain?” His hand continued gently smoothing over my belly.
I shrugged. “It varies from omega to omega. I think two months will be a good starting point.” I eyed my belly again. “But don’t let the fullness fool you. This is simply all your seed’s doing.”
A possessive expression took over his features as he stared intently at my stomach. He was definitely feeling proud of himself.
I chuckled at my silly alpha and went to bathe, only another wave hit me halfway there. I could’ve sobbed with relief. I’d thought it might’ve been over, but I would cherish this last wave.
“Gus,” I whined, but he was already there, picking me up like I was the most precious thing in the kingdom, and then carrying me back to bed.
As soon as my back hit the sheets, he slammed into me, making me feel whole again.
“Yes, my alpha,” I breathed, smiling with relief. This was pure heaven. My handsome alpha looming over me, his scent surrounding me, his length throbbing inside me.
“So beautiful,” Gus cooed, his thrusts slower this time, hitting deeper, like he, too, wanted us to savor this wave.
It was at that moment that I decided to be truly selfish. I chose to take something for myself for once. I grabbed his face with both my hands. Gus’ eyes showed surprise as they found mine, then I pulled him down and met his warm lips with my own. A whimper escaped me, followed by his growl of approval as I poured every last bit of myself into the kiss. I opened up to deepen the kiss, following my instincts on what to do, and Gus followed my lead eagerly, his tongue meeting mine in a dance of lovemaking while he continued to claim me with his cock. He tasted of honey, sunshine, and goodness. Like fucking life. My eyes were overflowing with tears, but I didn’t care. I let them falland allowed them to paint the sheets with my love for this man, because it could only be love I felt for him.
I’d just given Gus my first kiss.
“My omega,” he whispered, his lips soon finding mine again, as if he couldn’t bear to part from me in any way.
“Yours,” I choked on a sob. “Only ever yours.” It was a lie, of course. Just make believe. It could never be, but for a little while longer, we could both pretend.
His eyes were glassy too, his blue eyes so full of emotion as we just gazed at one another, his movements unhurried. I decided to end our torture.
“Fill your omega with your seed, Alpha.” It was a command, and the heat in his eyes said everything.
