Get to the more pleasurable stuff?
She’d done the initial twenty.
Did she really feel like she deserved twenty for her little lie and for forgetting to call him ‘Sir’?
Maybe.
Maybe part of her just wanted to see if she could handle it; maybe part of her was enjoying this, even though she also thought she was crazy to; maybe part of her just needed the catharsis of getting it all out.
“No, Sir.”She took a deep breath, readying herself.“I want to finish it.”
“Brave girl.These last twenty won’t be as hard.”
It didn’t matter, though.Her cheeks were already on fire, so every swat felt like burning.She cried out.Squirmed.Counted.Wondered if she was insane for asking him to continue.But she didn’t want him to stop.Some part of her craved it.
Needed it.
And when she counted the fortieth, she burst into raw sobbing that had nothing to do with the physical pain.
ChapterForty-Two
Audrey
“Hey.Deep breath.”Mason pulled Audrey up onto his lap, and she snuggled right in, still weeping onto his shoulder.His hand rubbed her back.“Let it out, sweetness.”
“I’m sorry,” she replied, hiccupping as she tried to suppress the tears.“I’m sorry.”
“For what?”He cradled her against him, one arm wrapped around her back for support, the other over her legs, so he could rest his palm on the hot skin of her ass.Audrey could feel his cock digging into her from the side, so at least she hadn’t completely ruined things for him.
“I thought it would be more sexy and less crying.”She sniffled.
Chuckling, Mason leaned over to the side of the couch where there was a box of tissues and grabbed it for her.She took two at once and started trying to wipe herself clean.
“I think you needed it,” he said.“And I find you plenty sexy.Disciplinary spankings aren’t necessarily sexy, you know.”
“Well, it was in my head.”
That made him laugh again, and he tightened his grip on her as she huffed in annoyance.The steady warmth of his body against hers, the way he held her, made her feel a lot better.Even if he was laughing at her.
“You’ve had a lot going on.I think you needed to get it out.”
He wasn’t wrong.Audrey felt depleted but also better.Like a cloud that had gathered up too much moisture and finally let loose with the rain.She still made another ‘humph’ noise because she didn’t like crying.Especially when she ruined something that was supposed to be sexy because she was crying.
His fingers moved over her skin, stroking her, and she shivered.Thanks to the spanking, her butt felt tenderized but also extra sensitive.Which could have been bad, but the way he was touching her right now felt very, very good.
“I think I did, too,” she said, even though she felt like she’d been crying too much lately.
Crying over the brick through her bakery window.
Crying over her parents.
But she’d always managed to pull herself back from cryingtoo much.At least, that’s how it had felt.Now, she realized she might have needed to cry a little more.
As the tears dried up, something else was stirring inside her, helped along by Mason’s gentle stroking.Something that made her realize she hadn’t ruined sexy time.Just delayed it a few moments.Which Mason didn’t seem to mind.
“Feeling better?”he asked, seeming to have noticed that she was more in control.She nodded.
“Good.”
