Kicking off my jeans, I ducked my head under the blanket to try putting the condom on. I couldn’t see much, just more skin and shadows.
“You need help?” Ruby asked from above.
“They taught us this in health class,” I said, wrestling with it. “I’ve just never had a girl around before.”
I cringed a second too late, realizing I’d basically admitted I’d practiced solo.
When it was finally on, I pulled my head out from under the blanket and looked at Ruby. She was lying there, eyes wide but fixed on mine.
“Are you sure?” I asked.
She nodded. “Yeah.”
I shifted to lie on top of her, bashful and careful, and we kissed, my hand braced beside her head.
It felt amazing to be naked with her. All that sweet, scented skin and warmth and softness of her body.
I touched her breasts while kissing her. I wanted to kiss them too, but knew I’d fill that condom now if I even tried.
Just lying like this with my body fitting between her legs was enough to make my year, but I wanted to be inside her. It didn’t work the first time—I was too off-angle or too nervous—but on the second try, everything aligned.
I heard myself groaning at the warm, tight slickness I was pushing slowly into. It was ... amazing.
Ruby gasped slightly, and I froze.
“Are you okay?” I whispered.
She nodded. “It just stings a little. I’m okay.”
“Sorry,” I whispered, wondering if I should have done something differently. I moved slowly, trying to remember everything I’d ever read, every locker room conversation I’d overheard. The pleasure and excitement and nervousness were so acute that I exploded far too fast—two minutes, maybe less.
I stayed there for a moment, stunned by the rush of feeling, and also not quite sure what I was supposed to do now. Eventually, I pulled out, rolled to the side, and took care of the condom, still catching my breath.
I looked over at Ruby. “You okay? Should I ... do something to, um, pleasure you?” I asked, the words clumsy in my mouth. I wasn’t even sure I was using the right verbiage.
She smiled, warm and a little dazed. “No. I’m okay. I’m just ... glad.”
“Me too,” I said.
Wanting to do something right, something grown-up, I slid an arm around her and gently tugged her closer until her head rested on my shoulder, like I’d seen them do in movies.
Besides, I wanted to feel her close. I didn’t want this to end.
Ruby let out a soft breath and settled in.
Something expanded in my chest.
She shifted a little on my shoulder, her voice muffled against my skin. “So ... was it what you imagined?”
I let out a breathy laugh. “Kind of? I mean, it was amazing, but I thought it’d last longer.”
She grinned and tilted her face up toward me.
“What about you?” I asked, wincing inside, because it couldn’t have been great for her.
“It didn’t hurt as much as I thought it might.”
I looked at her, serious. “Good. I was worried about that.”
