The corner of my lips curve. “Show me our new home.”
The way their faces light up is almost more than I can handle. And I let them lead the way, showing me every part of the place. It should scare me how much work this place needs.
It’s broken, a mess, unloved.
But we were that once too. We got better, became better, together. We can do the same here. Build something good, and lasting.
“I love it,” I say as Knox shows the backyard.
“We haven’t showed you upstairs yet,” he chuckles as he scratches the back of his neck.
“Do you love it?” I ask him and he nods.
“Once we’re done with the place, it will be everything we ever need,” he says and my lips stay closed. That isn’t an answer and he knows it.
“I love it.” He smiles. “We… we can build our life here, I just know it.”
“I want that too, with all of you,” I say and take in my men. “We deserve a place like this.”
We’ve had enough bad, we deserve the good.
All of it.
Epilogue
HOPE
The evening breeze raises goosebumps on my arms, or is it the tension deep down in my stomach that makes me tremble slightly?
“Are you sure, sweetheart?” Dimitri asks and my heart races as my nerves pump through my veins.
“I’m ready for it, and I know you all want it too,” I say, a nervous smile on my lips.
I do want this. I’ve always wanted these men, wild, crazy, and unrestrained. I trust them enough to give in fully and fight how I want to fight.
“CNC play is about control, power. And somehow, it has always helped me cope with all the bad stuff. I just… not everyone wants to do it. It might be scary to try again with all that happened, but none of us are into vanilla sex. And I trust you all. I think I’m ready to surrender fully.” I am ready… I think… I better be. I really enjoy our new moments. They’re sweet and all. But I’ve alwaysneededmore than that. “I’m so grateful to you all for giving me the time to heal and find myself. But please, don’t make me beg for it.”
“Don’t tempt me,” Jaxon teases. “You know how much I like it when you beg.”
My cheeks heat and I catch Knox’s stare.
“Choose a safe word,” he says and my stomach tightens.
It’s happening.
“Wait, wait,” Dimitri utters, holding up his hand. “And you want to do it here?” he looks around, and I bite my bottom lip.
I shrug my shoulders. “I thought, it might be harder to get into if we do it at home. So… yes.”
“I love it,” Jax says. “You know how much I like breaking into places.”
I roll my eyes. Of course, we all know that. My eyes take in our future home. At least, we sign tomorrow. But what better way to bless it than having our first CNC session here?
“Safe word, I’m not asking again,” Knox says, his tone getting harsher.
“Let’s do red,” I say, fidgeting with my fingers. “And… I’ll tap out, if I can’t… say it…” Oh god.
“We won’t be nice,” Dimitri adds.
