This was degradation, not possession.
I pushed her backwards until her bare thighs hit the cold, glass edge of my massive desk. Papers scattered. A heavy crystal ashtray clattered to the floor. I didn’t seem to notice. My eyes remained locked on hers, a predator holding its prey. I met her gaze, and I saw her fear. I didn’t care. She was here to pay for her father’s sins, and she would pay dearly.
I unfastened my belt, the rasp of leather and metal slicing through the quiet. My pants and boxers slid down my hips just enough. My cock sprang free, already thick and heavy, fully erect. A dark, primal urge warred with a sudden, suffocating wave of self-disgust.
I didn’t ask. Didn’t prepare her. I gripped her hips, yanking her to the very edge of my desk, her back arching uncomfortably over the hard surface. One hand kept her pinned by the shoulder; the other guided my dick to her entrance.
She was dry. Tight. I didn’t care.
With a brutal thrust, I buried myself inside her to the hilt. Her sharp scream, the way her body clawed to move away, was a physical blow.
Fuck!She was a virgin. That motherfucker sent me an innocent!
He would pay dearly for that mistake.
Kate cried out, a sharp, pained sound that echoed off the glass walls. Her nails scrabbled against the polished desktop. I hissed through clenched teeth, the sensation of her tight, resisting cunt almost painful. It was a raw, visceral pain that was both her father’s and mine—a shared violation that he had orchestrated and I would finish. I held myself deep for a moment, letting her body adjust around the intrusion, feeling the tremors wracking her. And in that moment, suspended between her raw pain and my hollow victory, I knew I had crossed a line. The man I had convinced myself I could be was gone, and all that remained was the architect of this ruin. The regret, cold and sharp, set in, a chilling premonition of the emptiness that would follow.
“Fucking tight,” I growled, my voice thick. A flicker of something—disgust, or perhaps shame—warred with a primal instinct as I pulled back almost all the way, seeing my dick coated in her innocence, then slammed forward again, harder.
My desk scraped across the floor, a repulsive sound that spoke of collateral damage. But the primal urge, the one that whispered ‘conquer,’ drowned it out.
Kate sobbed, turning her face away, pressing her cheek against the cold glass. Her pain was a raw, visceral thing, and a part of me, a part I desperately tried to smother, recoiled. Yet, I set a punishing rhythm, each deep, driving thrust rocking her body, forcing grunts and choked cries from her throat. Her skin felt like satin stretched over trembling muscle, and for a fleeting, agonizing second, I saw not a whore, but a person. A personI was breaking. Sweat beaded on my brow, dripping onto her back, searing her skin like a brand. I watched myself disappear into her, watched the obscene joining, the way her body was forced to accommodate me, her slickness easing the friction only through my sheer, relentless force. The efficiency of it sickened me—the cold calculation in my actions, the way I felt like a machine, devoid of any humanity.
I fucked her like I conquered.
Ruthlessly. Efficiently. Taking what was mine.
My fingers dug bruises into her hips, a physical manifestation of the violence I was inflicting, a violence that was beginning to feel like a betrayal of everything I thought I stood for.
I leaned over her, my chest pressing against her back, my mouth near her ear, my words nothing more than a confession of my monstrosity. “You like this, whore? Like being fucked by a monster?” As I pistoned into her, the wet slap of skin on skin filled the room, a counterpoint to the soaring violins. The music, once a symbol of beauty and refinement, now felt like a grotesque mockery of the scene.
Kate moaned, a desperate, broken sound. “Yes... Mr. Vitale... yes.”
It sounded like a prayer for it to end. A prayer I knew I was refusing to answer. A prayer I knew in the darkest corners of my mind that I should be granting.
I drove deeper, faster, chasing the coiling heat building in my gut, a heat that felt less like pleasure and more like the burning of my soul. Her body clenched around me involuntarily, a spasm of raw sensation. I buried my face in her hair, inhaling her cheap perfume and the scent of her sweat and fear and forced arousal. I felt her try to push back against me, seeking friction, or perhaps escape.
I didn’t know. And the not knowing, the willful ignorance, was the worst part.
I didn’t care. That was the lie I told myself. But as her body convulsed again, and a sound tore from her throat that was less a cry of pleasure and more a strangled gasp for air, my lie crumbled. I felt a sickening wave wash over me.
This wasn’t a conquest.
This was degradation. And I was the one doing the degrading. My regret was already a cold, sharp shard in my gut, a promise of a reckoning I was actively constructing.
I was close. The pressure was immense—a dam about to break. But even as my body screamed for release, a cold knot of dread tightened in my gut. This was wrong. Utterly, fundamentally wrong. Yet, the primal need, the years of suppression, the gnawing emptiness that defined my existence, it all surged. I slammed into her one final time, halting myself with a guttural groan that tore from my throat, a sound ripped from a place I no longer recognized. I pulsed deep inside her, warmth flooding her core, my hips grinding against her ass as I emptied myself.
I stayed buried in her for a long moment, breathing harshly, my weight pinning her to my desk. The tremors still running through her body felt like a brand on my soul.
This wasn’t a triumph; it was a betrayal. A betrayal of the man I thought I was, the man I wanted to be. Slowly, I pulled out, my softening cock slick with her wetness, blood, and my seed. Then I stepped back and tucked myself away, fastening my pants with detached efficiency. My hands trembled, not with lingering arousal, but with profound self-loathing. Kate slid limply off the desk onto shaky legs, clutching her torn underwear, not meeting my eyes. She bent, retrieving her dress with clumsy hands. Each movement was a stark accusation.
I turned back to the window, forcing myself to look away from the wreckage I’d made. The city lights swam in my vision for a second, the afterimage of my climax a brief, meaningless flicker against the encroaching darkness. Emptiness rushed back in, deeper, colder than before, laced with the bitter taste of regret. I watched her reflection in the glass as she hurriedly pulled her dress back on, the red lingerie hidden once more, a scarlet shame I’d forced upon her.
She looked battered. Used. Small.
A wave of nausea washed over me. I should have stopped. I could have stopped. But the ingrained habit of taking, the desperate need to fill the void, had overridden every shred of decency. This was the man I’d become, a monster cloaked in business attire.
“Your father’s debt is paid. Someone will see you out,” I stated, my voice flat, devoid of the heat of moments ago, but now also devoid of any warmth or humanity. My words felt like shards of ice, cutting through the already fractured air. I had to distance myself, to pretend this was merely a transaction, a necessary evil—anything to avoid confronting the rot within.
