“Impossible,” I said flatly.
She tipped her head to the side.“That’s not impossible.I’m not that experienced.”
“We’ve already been there, done that.It’s not about experience.It’s about the way I feel when I’m with you.I’ve kissed you enough, touched you enough that I know it will be amazing.”
“Okay,” she said doubtfully.
I reached for her hand, bringing it to my length where my arousal glistened at the tip.There was no doubt this was going to be an exercise in restraint for me because I wanted this to be good for her.Her eyes widened slightly, and she curled her palm around my length.I almost choked when she slid her thumb over the pre-cum and brought her hand to her mouth to lick it off.
“Fuck.Kendall,” I groaned.
“That’s the point,” she teased.
“Oh, sweetheart,” I murmured.
The next few moments were a jumble as I brought my mouth to hers.Our kiss was hot and open, and I fell into it.It was like being thrown into a bonfire, sparks leaping into the sky, the heat of it spiraling out of control.
I teased her nipples again, pressing her knees apart, the sight of her glistening, swollen pink core nearly undoing me.I eased two fingers in before I brought my mouth to her sex as her hips rocked up toward my mouth.I meant to take it slow, but she was on edge already and came in a noisy burst.
Moments later, after more languid kisses, I stretched her out over the bed.When her eyes met mine, uncertainty gripped me.“Kendall, I don’t know if?—”
She shook her head.“It’s not going to hurt.Technically, I’m just a man virgin.I’ve used a vibrator.”Her tone was practical, as if she were discussing kitchen appliances.
I nearly choked.The thought of Kendall,myKendall, using a vibrator was enough to push me over the edge.
I clung to my control, the thread of it frayed to the point of unraveling.I needed this to be good for Kendall.She didn’t help matters, arching against me as she dusted kisses along the side of my neck and murmuring, “Hurry, hurry.”
“Kendall,” I warned.
She giggled, and, fuck me, that sound undid me every time.I rose up on an elbow, sliding my palm down over the soft curve of her belly.“No, we’re not hurrying.”I rolled my eyes, finding my footing with sarcasm.
Her smile was sly, and yet, I saw hints of uncertainty flickering in her eyes.“What is it?”I pressed.
She started to shake her head, but I cut in, “Kendall, I know you.”
She pressed her lips together, letting out a small sigh.“If we’re about to screw up our friendship, well, we’re past that.And, I just…” Pausing, she cleared her throat.“I just want us to be okay.”
The enormity of what was happening slammed into me.This was Kendall, my best friend.I deeply understood her uncertainty because my feelings were no longer a crush that I kept to myself.Acting on how I felt was so much more than everything that had led us to this point.I slid my palm up lightly, cupping her cheek and tracing my thumb along her jawline.
“I know.We are kind of past that point, but I also think it’s going to be okay.”Even though I didn’t want to say this, even though it ran against the emotions racing through me like wind blowing leaves wild, I did.“If you want to change your mind at any point, all you have to do is tell me.”
Kendall rolled her eyes and pursed her lips.“Are you serious?”
“Yes, I’m serious,” I pressed.“What if it’s not a good idea?”
“Well, it’s too late for us to think that,” she pointed out sharply.“Absolutely too late.”Her gaze softened as she whispered, “Jude…”
With the emotion reverberating in her voice, she might as well have grabbed my heart in her hands.This womanownedme, and she didn’t even know it.I honestly didn’t think she would ever be able to understand how much she meant to me.
She leaned up to kiss me again.Even though we were bare naked, tangled together, this kiss was pure emotion.
Her tongue twined lazily with mine, and all the while, my heart rolled with an echoing drumbeat.When we broke apart, we stared at each other for a long moment.Kendall arched again, stretching almost like a cat as she flexed against me.“Now, will you hurry?”
The lightning intensity of this moment was threaded within all of my feelings for her.The lightness, the vulnerability, the depth, all of it tangled together with my eyes boring into hers.I shifted my weight, quickly taking care of the condom before rolling over her and resting my hips in the cradle of hers.
“Are you sure?”I asked as I felt the slick kiss of her against me.
“Absolutely,” she whispered.
