She felt the change before she saw him, a slight disturbance in the room’s magical atmosphere that prompted her to look up. Darcy stood in the doorway.
Georgiana’s eyes widened in surprise at her brother’s unexpected appearance. Darcy, however, did not so much as glance at his sister. His gaze was fixed on Elizabeth, and his voice held an underlying note of purpose that immediately captured her attention. “Elizabeth, would you do me the honour of accompanying me for a drive? There are parts of the estate I wish to inspect.”
Sensing a gravity in his tone that went beyond asimple inspection, Elizabeth cast a quick, questioning look at Georgiana. The younger woman offered a small nod. Only then did Elizabeth turn back to her husband and smile warmly. “I should like that very much.”
The curricle was brought around, and soon they were speeding along the winding drives of Pemberley, the crisp air invigorating, the silence between them companionable.
As they drove, Elizabeth could not help but notice the changes in the landscape around them. The estate now showed distinct signs of returning life. The grass, though still patched and winter-brown in places, was also, in others, a vibrant green. There were even, here and there, brave, unseasonable clusters of snowdrops, their delicate blossoms a splash of colour against the earth.
She could still feel the Blight, but it was as if the land was starting to win, its natural resilient magic now reasserting its dominion. Their success in the Peaks had been more than a single victory; its consequences could now be felt woven into the soil. The renewed ley line was a pulse of warmth spreading through the earth.
“The land is healing,” Elizabeth said, her voice filled with awe as she surveyed the scene.
“A heartening sign, to be sure,” Darcy agreed, though his tone was solemn. “It only makes the state of the north a starker contrast.”
The unspoken name of Newcastle settled between them. Elizabeth felt the grip of fear in her stomach, the memory of Buxton’s fires rising in her mind. She knew the moment had come; the time for avoidance was over.
As if he had reached the same conclusion, Darcy turned the horses from the main drive, guiding them to a halt in a grassy glade overlooking a small stream whose waters now ran clear and unblemished.
Elizabeth’s gaze remained on the clean water as the curricle stilled. Here, in this pocket of healing, was a promise of what could be. The thought banished the last of her own hesitation. “It seems an unconscionable thing to allow Newcastle to waste away when the remedy may lie within our power,” she said quietly.
Darcy seemed to contemplate her assertion carefully before he spoke. “I do not dispute the truth of your words. However, I must consider my duty to Pemberley. The Buxton fine will require me to sell off two of my smaller holdings, the north pastures, and the timber rights to the old wood. To fund an expedition to Newcastle now, to risk another such failure, another such penalty…it would not just cripple Pemberley. It could bankrupt it.”
Elizabeth winced. The estates, the north pastures, the old wood — these were not abstract assets on a ledger; they were living parts of his heritage, of the home she was just beginning to cherish. How could she ask him to sacrifice the legacy of generations for a perilous venture prompted by the word of a man like Wickham?
For a gut-wrenching moment, she thought he was refusing, that the hard logic of finance would win out over the desperate plea of a dying city. Her own resolve wavered.
“That said,” Darcy continued wearily, his gaze shifting from the distant woods back to her, “I do not believe I can stand idly by while an entire city and its people descend into utter desolation. Not when there is even a sliver of a chance that we might offer some aid.”
He had weighed the ruin of his ancestral home against the lives of strangers and had not hesitated; he was choosing his principles over his inheritance.
“Even if Captain Wickham is attempting something malicious?” she asked carefully.
“If he is, that would surprise me not in the least.” Darcy pinched his brow. “But I do believe the suffering in Newcastle is not a fabrication. The London papers have been exceptionally vague on the matter, and the Arcane Office has maintained a conspicuous silence regarding the northern city. And it is to that reality, not to Wickham’s potentially duplicitous motives, that my conscience must ultimately answer.”
The pronouncement, once voiced, hung in the air, momentous and terrifying. Elizabeth’s throat went dry from apprehension. The prospect of willingly facing such a trial again, even with their newfound understanding, was daunting.
The fear of the Concordance failing, the fear of unleashing something even more terrible.
The fear was more than just Buxton. It was older,colder.
The memory she had fought so hard to keep buried.
Elizabeth turned to him, her voice barely more than a whisper, yet heavy with a terrible weight. “Darcy,” she began, the name a plea, “there are things I have kept from you. There have been tragic consequences from my magic before, an event that happened long before Buxton. It is why…it is why I fear it so.”
Darcy said nothing at first, but the expression on his face was a deep, compassionate concern. He was waiting, she realised, waiting to see if there was more that she wished to unburden.
When she remained silent, he said, very gently, “I am grieved to hear it. Not for any failure you might lay upon yourself, but for the sorrow you have borne.”
The unexpected kindness in his tone finally broke through the wall she had maintained for so long. The words spilled from her then, a torrent of shame and grief held back for more than a decade.
“I have done the worst thing possible,” she said, the confession a physical agony. “When…when I was a child, not yet eight, my mother was with child, a son, we all thought. I reada charm in one of my father’s books, a blessing for a new life. I thought...I thought I could help.” She choked on a sob, her gaze fixed on her own trembling hands. “But I could not control the magic. And that day…that day, my mother lost the child. Because of what I did.”
The silence that followed her words was absolute. In that terrible quiet, fear seized her. She had just laid bare the most shameful act of her life. She was terrified to look up, to meet his eyes, to see the inevitable judgement that would surely be there. She waited for the condemnation, for the withdrawal, for the confirmation that he now saw her as she saw herself — a harbinger of sorrow.
But his reply, when it came, held none of that.
“Elizabeth,” he said, his voice rough with an emotion she could not name. “I am so very sorry. You were so young to know such pain, to shoulder such a terrible guilt. That is a burden no child should have to bear.” He moved closer, his presence a solid warmth against the sudden chill that had gripped her.
