“Wait, hold up, what happened to my brother?”she asked, reaching out to him and putting a hand on his shoulder.
“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“Okay, past Hawk would tell me something along the lines of, ‘that is never happening,’ or ‘when hell freezes over.’There would be some kind of witty retort that told me and the whole world that he was never ever going to be a parent.Nothing?”
“There is nothing to say.”
“And why is that?”
He shrugged.
“Hell, no, you do not get to just shrug and think that is the end of it.Tell me, is my little birdy true in that you and Katie are crazy for each other?”
“I’m not going to tell my sister about my love life, and in all honesty, it’s a little weird that you want to know.”
“I might get to be an auntie, do you know how amazing that is?”
“Well, I get to be an awesome uncle, so yeah, pretty cool.”
Sarah squeezed his shoulder.“Are you saying what I think you’re saying?”
“I don’t know what you think I’m trying to say.”
“That you are considering kids and a family and settling down, and everything you used to hate and despise.”
“I never despised it,” Hawk said.
Sarah snorted.“Please, you were, like, ‘marriage is for losers,’ and ‘there are too many fish in the sea to marry just one.’I thought it was an asshole statement, and I also think it was made by someone who couldn’t catch the right fish.”
Hawk looked toward his sister and knew he shouldn’t have asked her to take him.
“Aha, I knew it,” Sarah said.
“You knew what?That I deeply regret asking you to take me to look for a car?Because, guess what, I do!”
“No, all this time you were not able to get the right fish, and you have known Katie a long time.You were in the same year.”
And a couple of classes, but he wasn’t about to tell his sister that.She did not need any more ammo for her interrogation.Since when did his sister think like this?It was exhausting.
“And you and her are hanging out so much, and oh, my God, how did I not see this before?This is just so perfect.”
“I think you need help and to get out a little more,” Hawk said.
“You’re in love with Katie, and you have been for a long time, and that is why you act the way you do.Why you never had a steady girlfriend, and just had a whole bunch of women rotating through your bedroom.You didn’t get the woman you actually wanted.”
He looked toward his sister.“Your point?”
“Tell me, how does the thought of marrying Katie make you feel?”
Now his sister had grabbed both his arms and was forcing him to look straight at her.
“What is the point of this?”he asked.
“Just tell me.How does it make you feel?Come on, I’m your sister and you know I’m not going to tell anyone else.”She let out a pout.“Please, for me.Consider it payback for all those times you teased me growing up.”
He sighed.“I ...like the idea.”He actually more than liked it, but Katie wore Adam’s wedding band.However, he had noticed on the morning he made love to her, there was no wedding band in sight.
The more he thought about the future, the only person he saw was Katie.But he also saw her pregnant, with his kid.They hadn’t used fucking protection either, not the five times they had sex.He wanted to ask her if she was on anything, but at the same time, he didn’t want to know, so he could be excited about the possibility of becoming a dad.It was all messed up in his head.
