I must have been a prolific asshole in a previous life to deserve this. An oil tycoon. A corrupt dictator of a small nation. A mosquito carrying malaria. Whoever first decided to install fluorescent lighting in a changing room.
I nod, my mouth stuck open and my jaw locked into place. “Okay,” I whimper involuntarily. “Of course,” I say, standing on wobbly legs.
I’m leaving. Fleeing.
He can see the kid on their eighteenth birthday, if I somehow manage to survive this level of mortification. I refuse to acknowledge Bo as I pass him by and enter the front hall, slipping on my boots before reaching for my jacket.
“Win,” Bo laughs out my name, coming in after me.
“Nope,” I say sharply, reaching for the door handle.
He places his hand on top of mine, stopping me from my escape.
I donotlook up at him. The big nerd with supersonic hearing and a stupidly cute face and giant warm hands. Fuck him. Ihatehim.
How much did he hear?
“Win…” Bo says, his tone laced with enjoyment that Ideeplyresent.
“Please let me go out into the cold to die.” I drop my forehead against the door.
“I can’t let you do that, honey.”
“Donotcall me that,” I snap.
“Sorry,” Bo recoils, removing his hand from on top of mine and taking a step back.
I lift my forehead and let it fall against the door again, my face turned toward him slightly. “How much did you hear?”Meaning, did you happen to hear the one time I accidentally let your name slip out? Or, perhaps, the second time it did when I realised howclosejust saying your name got me to the finish line?
Bo braces his forearm across the top of the archway and leans into it, closing the space between us half an inch. But I feel himeverywhere.“Enough to knowyouthink about Halloween too.”
Shit, fuck, shit.
“Okay, well…” I try to formulate a defence, despite the need to shrivel up and die. “It was the last time I had sex. What else am I going to think about?”
“Your best time,” he offers, his voice taunting. “Unless…” He drops his arm and bends at the waist, smug in his approach. “Thatalsohappens to be that night.”
“You wish,” I spit.
Bo sighs, his eyes falling to the floor as he straightens, standing and wiping a hand down his face. “I think you’re right, though,” he says, his voice far off. “About the rules… moving forward. I think that’s the right thing to do.”
But…
I wait. A thin tight rope under my feet leading to his.
Nobutfollows.
I shouldn’t be disappointed, right? It’s ridiculous to be disappointed. These aremyrules. I’ve only just shared them.
“Okay…” I reply, pressing my ear against the front door, giving him a few more inches of my face, though I can’t bring myself to look at him for long.
“I’m sorry,” he says. “I shouldn’t have said anything.”
“And keep hearing me? No…”
Bo looks at me sympathetically, a crooked smile and a long, thoughtful breath that raises his chest. “C’mere.” He reaches out for my arm, tugging me toward him and away from the door. He wraps one arm around my shoulders, holding on to the top of my arm, and rests the other on the back of my head, pressing me to him. I grumble my annoyance, remaining stiff all over with my arms locked at my sides.
But I can’t help but breathe him in. That cinnamon, musky scent. The one that’s so distinctly him. Sweet and warm and inviting. And proving to me, once again, why we need these rules.
