CHAPTER ONE
My phone rings, flashing a number that immediately sends a chill down my spine. I follow my instincts, ditching my cart and spot in the checkout line to find quiet in the grocery store’s bathroom—which is thankfully empty.
“Hello, this is Chloe.” My voice is already shaking.
“Hi Chloe, this is Rachel Feroux calling from Child Protective Services. Is this a good time to talk?”
I close the toilet stall and lock it behind me as an all-too-familiar feeling of dread creeps into my chest. I paw at my collarbone with my free hand. A nervous rash is most likely already spreading.“Sure.”Connie…it has to be Connie.She’s hurt, or worse. Why else would CPS call? I haven’t heard from a social worker in over six years.
“Okay, great.” Rachel clears her throat, then seems to brace herself with a deep inhale. “In your file, it states that you’re open to your birth mother contacting you. Is that still accurate?”
Do I want to know?“Yes…”
“It is sort of an unusual call, I suppose. Your mother… sorry, Constance. Constance has put in an urgent request that you visit her. She’s at the hospital.”
My body goes entirely still, and the blood pumps slower in my veins. As much as I have tried to distance myself from her, the need for Connie to be okay still sits lodged in my throat.
“She has just, entirely unexpectedly, given birth.”
“I’m sorry, what?” I fight for my next breath.
“Your mother had a baby.”
My palm hits the stall’s wall before my back does, and I slide down to sit on the floor.I’ll burn these clothes later.
“No. That—but—what?”
“I understand that it must be a lot to process. I wish there was a way for me to deliver this news that wouldn’t give such a shock. Additionally, I know that it’s been over ten years since you have seen or heard from your mother.”
That is notentirelytrue. There were plenty of times in high school when she showed up without my adoptive parents’ permission, and I never told.
“Is she—Is Connie okay?”
“Yes, she’s fine. A colleague of mine is with her right now. The baby was premature. The doctor who called us earlier said they will make a full recovery, probably after a two or three-month NICU stay. The baby will not be placed with your mother. We are looking into different care options.”
Colleague. Placed.Care.Social workers are all over this—why would Connie want to see me? Wouldn’t she understand how messed up that is? To need me while she sends another kid into foster care?No, not just another kid.Mysibling.
She clears her throat. “Constance has listed you as a possible caregiver. She’s willing to sign over her parental rights to you. If not, the baby, after making a full recovery, will be placed in foster care.”
I pull the phone away from my face and stare blankly at the screen for a moment. I must have a bad signal or be imagining this entirely. A possible caregiver? For a baby.Me?
“But... I’m twenty-four.” I’m not sure why that’s the thought that escapes when there are about two thousand others bouncing around in my head, but for whatever reason, it’s what comes out. Twenty-four, recently graduated, no idea what I’m doing. Hell, I had been crossing my fingers that my bank card wouldn’t be declined for my groceries.
“Chloe, I understand that this is a lot to ask of you. Especially considering your distant relationship with your birth mother. However, it’s only appropriate that we follow up with each possible contact she provides. You have every right to say no, and there could be visitation options with your sibling if you were to want that.”
I gasp softly as an undeniable rush of joy curves my lips into a smile, another thought breaking through the heavy silence.I have a sibling.I’d have given anything for a sibling growing up, someone familiar and known. Someone to love and be loved by unconditionally. “Would I even be allowed?” I ask hesitantly. “If I wanted to?”
“That would require a much larger conversation. One that may be best to have at my office.”
“Yeah. Okay.”
“There would be lots to discuss. I think, right now, we should just digest this news.” Rachel’s voice remains cool yet determined.
“Right.” I pinch the bridge of my nose. My eyes are closed, but the room remains spinning.
“Constanceisasking to see you regardless.”
“Okay.” I don’t know if it’s the prospect of seeing Connie or the thought that she chose not to reach out before now that causes my lips to tremble, but either way, they do.
