She sighs. “Sure, message me your address, and I’ll come now.”
“Okay, see you soon.”
“Sure.”
We end the call, and I send her the details.
Thankfully, it doesn’t take her long to arrive, so I’m not left drowning in my pit of despair.
I let her in with a smile, and she hugs me, then takes a look around my place.
“Your home is really nice, Matt.”
“Thanks.”
“And Nate used to live here, too?” she asks, looking at everything.
I dip my head in answer.
Charlie nods like she’s taking it all in. She turns, plopping down on the sofa, and I follow suit. “Okay, so what’s got you frazzled?”
Running my hands through my hair, I exhale and slump into the sofa. “Fuck! I don’t even know.”
She glances down at me. “Well, something has you upset.”
“Yeah.”
“It’s okay if you don’t want to talk. I can sit here and we can chill.”
“I think I’m a bit overwhelmed. Everything and nothing is happening at the same time, and to be honest, I don’t know where I see myself.”
She nods again and reaches out, grabbing my hand. “Okay, well, we just ride it out. It will be okay. I’m not too worried. Matt, you’re amazing. You’re gifted. You’re a wonderful man. Things have a way of working out how they’re meant to.”
I suppose she’s right.
Maybe Alex is givingmespace, or perhaps us being away from each other will only make us stronger in the end. Or perhaps we aren’t supposed to be friends. Fuck, I don’t know. But maybe things will work out how they’re supposed to.
“True… okay, so you think just wait it out for now?”
“I do. Don’t make any rash decisions. Take each day as it comes. Everything happens for a reason, Matt. People come into your life to test you, to change you. Everyone is in it for a reason, even if you can’t figure out why.”
That I believe and nod emphatically.
I wish I knew the future for Alex and me.
I wish I knew my future, period.
This not-knowing bullshit is doing my fucking head in.
“How about we watch some television?”
“Sounds good.”
“Parks and Recreation?”she asks, and a sinking feeling filters through my stomach.
“No, how about a thriller or something?” I try to make it evident that I’m not affected by her asking to watchParks and Recreation.
That series was Alex’s and my go-to.
