“Well, I mean Icanhave human sex…” he trailed off, sheepishly looking up at me before his eyes dragged back down to my body. My hands slipped between my legs, cleaning myself there and his pupils enlarged. My eyes drifted to his tentacle cock. It was moving a lot, which I took as a sign of excitement.
“I didn’t want to have human sex,” he said, finishing his thought as his pupils flared and he stepped a little closer.
“Why not?” I asked. I ran through possibilities. Maybe he didn’t consider his human form to really be him. Maybe it didn’t feel natural.
“Because of you,” he said. His hand came up and pressed into the glass divider between us. His eyes bore into me a moment before dipping down to my chest.
“Me?”
“You goad my monster out. At first, I thought it was normal but my father explained it’s not. You’re special, Ava.”
“You talked to your dad about me?”
“You’re my mate, so of course I did.” My thoughts went back to the conversation in the caves.
“Your mom was your dad’s mate.”
“Yes.”
“What did you mean in the tunnel, Caspian? About being afraid of yourself.” He didn’t respond as I rinsed the soap off. I turned off the water and slid the shower door open. When I stepped out, Caspian didn’t back up and my wet body pressed to him.
“Cas?” I asked. He looked away and moved past me, going into the shower. He flicked the water on. I towel dried while my eyes dragged over him, then wrapped the towel around myself, tucking it in as best I could. Rivulets of water slid over his hair, pulling it into his face in long sheets that plastered to his jaw. Water slid down his chest, abs, and hips. It slid down his thighs. My eyes watched water slide down his large tentacle cock.
He shifted, his body rippling to reveal oversized eyes, the ridges of gills on his neck, pale blue skin, hair like water grass, talons, webbing, and spiny fins. He looked fierce and strong.
“Before I met you, there was an ache in my chest,” he said, bringing his hand to his heart and spreading the fingers enough for me to see the webbing. “I felt hollow and empty. Soulless.” He leaned into the water, tipping his head back to let it run over him. I watched dirt and blood rinse off him.
“In a way, you’re my soul. That's how I think of it at least,” he said. He used the soap, lathering it across his chest. I watched suds slip down to his cock. It moved, flexing and stretching.
“But why are you worried about hurting me?”
“Nokkens are intense. Mates often feel trapped, overwhelmed. There is no guarantee they feel the connection that we do. Mates often try to leave but that’s not something we can allow. We need them close, to protect and treasure. And like I said, you’re my soul, Ava. I can’t live without you.”
“You did for five years,” I said, managing to keep my voice blank instead of bitter. It had all happened so fast when he left. Our parents announced they were getting divorced and the separation would be effective immediately. They said Caspian could stay but he didn’t. He chose to leave and I couldn’t even be mad because he said he couldn’t leave his dad alone.
“It took me a month to get out of bed,” he said bashfully, looking down. “It hurt every day we were apart but it was all for you. I wasn’t going to force something between us. I thought if we had some distance and if I could become something that you might see me as a man. It was an unnatural thing to do. I do a lot of abnormal things for my kind.”
“What do you mean?”
“Willingly moving away. Not forcing our connection. Showing you what I am,” he said and my eyes dropped to see his cock flexing upwards again. “And sharing you with someone else.” My eyes flipped back up to his face quickly at that. His large eyes wouldn’t let me go.
“I bet he did something the moment you two were alone,” he said, eyes flashing wide as he pressed himself against the glass. I looked over his wet, long, muscular body. The suckers on his cock clung to the glass. He was an impressive sight.
“Did he?” He asked. I wasn’t sure what was going on here. Was he jealous even though he wanted to share me?
“He did,” I said. His chest heaved as his hands formed fists on the glass. He spun the water lever off and quickly jerked the shower door open. I backed up, pressing myself against the bathroom door. He stepped one foot at a time from the shower, water puddling beneath his webbed, taloned feet as he emerged.
“What did he do, exactly?” He asked. The bathroom light caught in his eyes and reflected in a flash as he moved towards me. “Tell me. Did he fuck you, Ava?” I shook my head as he approached. He pressed against me, his forearms resting on the door beside my head, boxing me in. Over-sized eyes peered down at me with wide, black pupils.
“He used his tongue on me, like what you saw in his cabin.” My tongue swiped over my lips as I waited for his reaction. Caspian leaned close, pressing his lips to my ear. My eyes caught on the mirror behind him. I saw my eyes peeking out from behind the monster. His stout dorsal fin ran nearly the entire length of his spine, the bony protrusions spiked brutally between blue webbing.
“I bet you looked beautiful when you came,” he whispered and a shiver raced up my spine. My hands came up to his neck, forgetting the gills. He sucked in a sharp breath when I touched them. I pulled my hand back quickly, worried I’d hurt him.
“Touch them, Ava. Please,” he whispered hotly in my ear. My hands went back to his neck, feeling the ridges of his gills. They were a collection of straight slashes on either side of his neck. My fingertips dragged across the seam, making him shiver. They opened slightly and my finger edged underneath the thick skin. Caspian groaned, pushing his body against mine, his tentacle cock writhing against my stomach.
Suddenly, he grabbed the doorknob and twisted it open. I stepped back but didn’t take my eyes off him as he approached.
“I want to see how perfect you look coming over and over again, until you can’t stand it.” My legs hit the bed and I fell over, only to find Pollux already on the bed. I sucked in a breath and looked back at Caspian approaching. His words took new meaning now that I knew Pollux was in the room with us.
