"I was just checking out your cowboy," Cy admitted.
I quickly looked up at Luke. "You know?"
"He guessed," Cy said. "I confirmed. Don't think it bothers him, or if it does, he's faking it pretty good."
"Doesn't bother me," Luke promised. "Kinda explains a lot, actually. And I may have Googled an entire list of words that Cy rambled off yesterday. Fucking aromantic and shit. Always thought there were just two options."
"Oh, because you've never thought about an orgy with a bunch of girls?" I asked.
"Well, yeah," he admitted. "Shit, I'm a guy, but it's like bisexual was just for women."
Cy grunted with disgust. "Do you know how many people are completely straight or completely gay? Not fucking many. Almost everyone has some sort of hetero or homoerotic fantasy. Even if they never intend to act on it."
Luke smiled at me. "You gonna tell me you got a side chick somewhere?"
"No," I said. "Pretty sure the only women I talk to are Chartreuse and Indigo."
"Damn," Luke teased. "I just figured that if things are getting all freaky over here..."
"Sadly, Gran got the lesbianism in our family. Doesn't mean I can't see a woman and think she's gorgeous, though. It's actually a lot more common for women to talk about. Even young girls often practice kissing each other and it's considered cute."
"Not the same with guys," Luke assured me. "Good way to get your ass beat."
"You ever think about it?" Cy asked.
"No!" Luke answered a little too fast, then stopped. "And that makes me sound like a dick."
"Try again," Cy said. "You've never thought about pinning a woman between you and another man? Saying you don't like watching a guy's dick slide into a woman on pretty much all straight porn? You never notice if a guy's good-looking or has nice muscles?"
"Everyone does that," Luke countered, turning me toward the door. "I mean, wouldn't be porn without sex, and takes a dick for sex, right?"
"Lesbians," I pointed out as I opened the door inviting them both in.
"Or that," Luke agreed. "But I meant..." Then he sighed. "Yeah, I'm bad at this."
"Ok," Cy said, heading for the kitchen, aiming for the fridge. "Think about this another way. Completely hypothetical here, and just using examples I know. You saying you'd be grossed out if you walked in on me fucking Violet? Or would you stay to watch? I mean, assuming there was no weirdness, jealousy, cheating, and all of that. Saying you had the hots for her, I was banging her, and she told you to stay." He grabbed a pair of beers and passed one over to Luke.
"Could be hot," he admitted. "But that's kink. I mean, shit like that doesn't happen in real life."
"Sure it does," Cy said. "My point is that you don't seem to mind if I kiss her. Sure, sweet little pecks, but you're not losing your shit. You know I love her. You try to convince yourself it's like a sister, but I promise it's not. You figure it's ok because my last lover was a man, but I've been with women too. All those excuses basically just remove the socialization that's convinced you how you're supposed to act."
"So kiss her," Luke said. "I mean, if she's into that."
Cy looked at me. "Willing to check your boy-toy's jealousy levels?" he asked.
"Ashton's coming back on Saturday," I told him, blurting it out there as if it could work like a shield.
"Mm." He nodded at that. "Good to know. Prolly shouldn't tell him about this, huh?"
I glanced back at Luke - confused, with my mind spinning - but not willing to refuse the opportunity. "Last chance to change your mind, cowboy."
"He has to wear the hat," Luke said. "And I'm gonna stand here and stare."
A devious little smile curled Cy's lips, and he tugged me against him. "I'm not stopping until you moan and he's hard."
"Or you are," I countered.
Then he bent. One hand cupped the back of my neck, that straw hat on his head slid against my face, but his mouth? Holy shit. Cyan kissed me hard, his tongue thrusting into my mouth, sliding against mine, and taking complete control. Nothing about this man was soft, from the way he held me to the feel of his teeth teasing my lower lip. I'd seen him kiss Magenta. I'd thought about it so many times as a girl, but feeling his lips on mine?
