Aiden sighed. “Yeah. More than just Will. Look, I can’t erase things that happened before I even knew you!”
“No,” Cade said quickly. He was completely aware of that sad truth, with all its implications for his own life. “I know. I’m not… I don’t expect you to. But… I don’t know.”
“You’re jealous again,” Aiden prompted. He didn’t sound as gleeful about it as he had the first time he’d discovered Cade’s weakness. “But there’s no reason to be. I mean, there was no reason to be jealous of Ian,either—like Dad said, I’ve been obsessing about you for quite a while, and I really didn’t have the energy to even look at anyone else. But being jealous of guys I used to be with? Come on, Cade.” His hand on Cade’s shoulder was gentle, almost tentative. When Cade didn’t shake him off, Aiden used his grip to tug a little, asking Cade to turn around. Cade moved slowly, but he moved. When they were facing each other, Aiden ran his hand up from Cade’s shoulder to cup his jaw. “I’m crazy about you, Cade. I’ve never felt this way about anyone before. Not even close. Okay?”
Cade’s response surprised both of them. His body knew what it wanted, and so did his heart. He surged forward, practically tackled Aiden back onto the bed, and held him there, hips pinning hips and grinding in, fingers interlaced, Aiden staring up at him and waiting to see what happened next.
Cade let his body continue running the show. He kind of liked where it had taken them so far. He lifted both of Aiden’s hands above his head and used one hand to pin them there. Which left Cade’s other hand free. He ran it down over Aiden’s sweater and then pushed beneath it, fighting past the cotton underlayer until he found skin. He pushed the sweater up as far as it would go, then bent his mouth to the warm skin he’d uncovered. “You’re mine now,” he said, his voice muffled as he kissed and nipped.
“Absolutely,” Aiden agreed. He already sounded a little breathless. “I’m yours.”
They were wearing too many clothes. Cade wanted Aiden naked, but he also wanted to drag it all out. Too many desires, too little time. And Aiden was leaving the next day.
But they had all night. And Aiden was coming back. Cade mostly believed that. Besides, maybe there was a way to get Aiden nakedanddrag things out….
“You don’t get to come,” he said in his most authoritative voice. He released Aiden’s hands and started stripping him out of his clothes. “Ido. As many times as I want to. As many as I can. But not you. Not until the end. So if you think you’re going to, you need to tell me and we’ll stop until you can calm down. You understand?”
“That wasn’t exactly how I saw this night going,” Aiden said cautiously.
Cade raised an eyebrow. “Oh, is it a bit of a surprise? Would you say you’remoreorlesssurprised by that than I was when your mother opened the front door earlier today?”
“Well, yeah. Okay. I’m probably a bit less surprised than you were.” Aiden lifted his hips to help Cade pull his jeans and underwear off.
“So you understand and agree to the rules?” Cade tried to ignore Aiden’s hard cock, beautiful and tempting before him. He needed to be strong or this wouldn’t work.
“I understand,” Aiden said slowly. Then he nodded. “And I agree.”
Cade rewarded them both by leaning forward and catching Aiden’s cock in his mouth. It felt perfect, and they both groaned a little as Cade sank down and swallowed it all. Then he eased back up and made himself pull away. “Do you have stuff here?” He wasn’t really ready for it yet, but he figured it’d be good to have it all lined up ahead of time.
“Yeah.” Aiden propped himself up on his elbows so he could see, which didn’t really make a lot of sense, since Cade wasn’t likely to be doing anything too exciting. “Bedside table.”
Cade reached for the deep drawer in the table that was more the size of a dresser.
“The key’s in my jeans’ pocket,” Aiden added.
Cade nodded. It made sense, in a house with parents and a housekeeper. He fumbled through Aiden’s jeans, found the little key, and fit it into the slot. As soon as he turned it and slid the door open, he knew why Aiden had wanted to be able to see him as he looked inside the drawer.
Condoms and lube, neatly laid out on the side closest to the bed. But next to them? An array of toys. Dildos, mostly, of various sizes and shapes. The requisite handcuffs and silk blindfolds. Some beads, some fingertip vibrators, a cock ring. Massage oils and creams. A lighter and a few carefully rolled joints, a couple bottles of liquid and a little vial of pills that Cade didn’t want to think about too much. It was all pretty white bread, really. About what Cade supposed a gay kid with a lot of money would end up collecting. The only part that made Cade at all uncomfortable was thinking of Aiden using any of the toys when his parents were in the house. But he sensed that he was supposed to be shocked.
Instead, he reached in and found the biggest dildo. Bright red, gently curved, and probably about as big around as his and Aiden’s dicks put together. He twisted the base to make it vibrate gently and raised it in Aiden’s direction. “You got a bit of a size kink I didn’t know about?”
Aiden grinned. He looked relieved, and Cade realized this had been a sort of test. Not one that he could have passed or failed, just something that might have changed the direction of their relationship, or at least of their sex lives. “I’ve never actually used it,” Aiden admitted. “It was a gift. Sort of a joke, really.”
“You’ve never used it?” Cade liked the sound of that and looked down at the toy thoughtfully. “We’ll try it, sometime. You could take it.”
Aiden stared at him, and Cade grinned back. Good. It was about time Aiden was the one getting pushed out of his comfort zone. “It’s fuckinghuge, Cade.”
“Nah,” Cade scoffed. “It’s not that big.” He’d been made to take bigger, and without any prep, but he wasn’t going to let himself think about that right then. “We’d go slow. Work up to it. You could do it.” He shrugged and started to return the toy to the drawer. “Sometime.” It was strange to be talking as if there was a definite future. Apparently he was starting to believe, at least for the moment, that Aiden was still going to want Cade after the Christmas break. “But for tonight, I still like my first idea. No coming for you.”
“Wait. I get to comeeventually, right? I mean, I’m not looking to join the Mile High Club bymyself. I need to come before I get on the plane. Right?”
“You’re going to have to earn it,” Cade said firmly.
“I’ll doanything.” Aiden grinned, daring and golden and beautiful.
Cade would do anything too, he realized. Anything to protect Aiden, anything to hold on to him for as long as possible. The rush of feeling was too strong, too uncontrolled, and it frightened him. But he couldn’t show that. No, he’d taken charge of things, at least for the night, so he needed to keep going. “We’ll see,” he said, and he pulled his sweatshirt and T-shirt up over his head and dropped them to the floor.
He climbed onto the bed and braced his jeans-clad legs on either side of Aiden’s naked hips. They both watched as he leaned forward and ground in, letting the rough denim scratch along Aiden’s hard cock.Aiden hissed and closed his eyes, his head thrown back, his neck an irresistible temptation for Cade’s hungry mouth.
