January would see things the opposite way around. Like, Lorcan was the lucky one for getting to breathe anywhere near her. I thought about the quote she’d inscribed in my locket.Maybe bravery meant walking away from something you wanted but knew was bad for you.
A kernel of doubt had me looking over at Sebastian again.
My heart plummeted at the sight of his lips pressed to Candice’s. Her arms were looped around his neck, her body crushed to his, and they were kissing like no one else was there.
Tears burned in my throat. I felt gutted. Like I was watching my boyfriend cheat on me.
Another one.
Even though I knew that wasn’t rational, it’s how I felt.
And once again I wondered what was so wrong with me that the guys I liked always ended up hurting me.
“Lily?”
I wrenched my eyes from the awful sight of Sebastian snogging another woman to the Irishman.
Lorcan was a sexy distraction.
And I needed to be brave enough to walk away from the thing that was bad for me for a sexy distraction that wouldn’t leave me feeling like shit in the morning. Forcing the pain from my tone and my expression, I gestured toward the street with a tip of my head. “I know it’s kind of crazy out there, but would you fancy getting out of here?”
His eyes lit up and I felt a flutter of butterflies in my belly.
That was encouraging.
It was a much better feeling than the crushing ache of seeing Sebastian all over Candice.
“You don’t want to wait for the bells up here? Watch the fireworks. Kiss at midnight.”
I chuckled at his cockiness. “How about we kiss at midnight … just not here?” Then recklessly I threw out, “My flat is empty. We could go back to my place.”
“Hell yes.” Lorcan held out his arm in a gentlemanly fashion, incongruous to his enthusiastic response and the unspoken plans between us.
I was about to embark on a one-night stand.
My first ever one-night stand.
Jittery nerves almost stopped me.
Go for it, big sis!I heard my sister’s voice in my head.
I took Lorcan’s arm and headed toward the rooftop door. Zac stood near it chatting up a pretty brunette. “Hey, Zac, can I grab my coat from your room?”
His eyes flickered over me and Lorcan and narrowed ever so slightly. But he flashed me a grin, like whatever that thought was he’d wiped it clean. “Sure. I left it unlocked before we came up. Go in and grab it. You’re leaving, then?”
I nodded. “Aye. I don’t feel like staying.”
Zac peered across the rooftop. “Good for you, Lil. Happy New Year when it comes.”
“You too.”
CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
SEBASTIAN
Ibroke the kiss with Candice.
She stared up at me, eyes smoky, turned on. Ready for more.
