I smiled as he pulled back to kiss me. Soft. Tender. Then he released me, gaze searching mine. “But that wasn’t how this was supposed to go.” Gently, he lowered me to my feet, and I made a mewling noise as he pulled out.
His breath hitched as he cupped my face in both hands. “I wanted our first time together again to be …I wanted …”
Frowning, I smoothed my dress. I thought it had been phenomenal, like he said, so why did he look … regretful? “To be?”
Theo smirked self-deprecatingly. “I wanted to make love to you.”
Wonder and hope warred with fear. I bit my lip shyly. “The night is still young.”
Twenty-Nine
SARAH
Theo wore an expression that must have said “Don’t even bloody think about coming near us” because we managed to escape the library and cut through the hall to the staff elevator without anyone stopping us.
The members weren’t supposed to use this lift, but I knew if we tried to use any other stairwell to get to his room, we’d be stopped by some guest or other.
Inside the lift, Theo pressed me against the wall and kissed me until my lips were bruised. We were barely aware of anything as we reached his floor and stumbled, kissing and laughing, toward his room.
“Someone’s going to find that condom and wonder who was naughty tonight.” Theo chuckled as he let us into his room.
There was nowhere to get rid of the used prophylactic but to wrap it in tissues we found on the library desk and put it in the bin. As an ex-housekeeper, I felt bad about that and promised myself I’d sneak down in the morning and take care of it. “Oh, they’ll know.”
“How so?”
“There are cameras everywhere.” I blushed at the thought of security having seen what we’d done.
Theo gaped. “Are you joking?”
I shook my head. “I’m sure they must have told you that when you became a member. All public spaces on the estate have cameras to protect the guests and staff.”
“So … you knew security could see us fucking?”
I bit my lip. “I forgot. In the heat of the moment.”
“Are you … bothered? Because I can talk to Walker.”
Blushing, I shook my head. “It was exciting.”
Theo looked ready to combust. “Fuck, you turn me on, woman.”
“Back at you.”
He reached for my hand, threading his fingers through mine. “Are we okay, Sarah?”
“We’re okay. I’m sorry if I overreacted.”
“No.” He tugged me to him. “After what you told me … you didn’t overreact.”
“Forget it.” I brushed my fingers over his soft lips. “Forget her.” Fear still rode the longing, but longing won out as I whispered, “Make love to me like you promised.”
He swallowed hard, and I swear my heart grew at the sight of his expression. He looked at me like he loved me. Half of me wanted him to say it and the other half was terrified he just might. At that moment, I didn’t want to analyze the latter.
Theo let go of my hand as he reached the bed and turned to face me. Holding my gaze, making my body hot without saying a word or touching me, he quickly removed his tuxedo jacket and bow tie and unbuttoned his shirt.
He whipped them all off, throwing them on the chair in the corner.
I would never get tired of looking at his beautiful body.
