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I like his message and go to find my book, feeling a little more energized for the day. The weather in California is rarely ever this perfect for reading, and I intend to take advantage of this for my day off. Well, my day off alone. We’ve technically had a lot of time off over the past week, but Sasha has been here for most of it.
We’ve bonded in a way I haven’t with anyone before. I can talk to him as easily as I could Amanda, but we have an underlying desire for each other that adds an undercurrent to every conversation. Spending time with him feels effortless, but also overwhelming. Like I could spend the rest of my life by his side, and it wouldn’t be enough. Icravehim physically and need more of his heart at the same time. He feels likehome.
I’ve just finished my coffee when my phone dings with a text.
Blanche:
Hi Lucy, I hope you’ve been enjoying your week. I wanted to have a little chat about things before we start shooting again. If you’re free this morning, would you mind swinging by my office?
I don’t even have time to process how disappointed I am that it isn’t another text from Sasha, because now I’m worried for my life. I haven’t talked to Blanche one-on-one since the day I moved in. I’ve since discovered that the woman is the most unpredictable person I’ve ever met. This meeting could quite literally be about anything. I guess I should respond before she comes traipsing over here. At least if I go to her, I can leave.
Me:
I’m free all day, just let me know when
Blanche:
Oh well, in that case, as soon as you can make your way over here. Just let yourself in the side door. I’ll be in my office.
Wishing I had said I was available later, I get up from my nest of cozy blankets and set my book down. Best to get this over with now rather than to worry about it all day.
It doesn't take long to walk from the cottage to the main house, which is good because I don’t have as long to get lost in my head. I follow her instructions and let myself into her mudroom, then quietly make my way to her office. There doesn’t seem to beanyone around today, a stark contrast from usual. With the staff and babies, this place normally feels like a circus.
I’ve barely rounded the corner to her office when she greets me. “Ah! Lucy darling, thank you so much for coming on such short notice. Please have a seat.”
“Not a problem at all…I…Have I done something wrong?” I ask, sitting down.
She looks up from the papers on her desk with pure confusion written across her face. “Of course not. Why would you think that? No, dear, I just wanted to touch base with you before we start our more…intimate filming. I know you had no complaints during our last meeting with Sasha, but I wanted to talk with youaloneto make sure you were okay with everything.”
I can feel my face flush, and I hope she doesn’t notice. “Oh, yes, I’m okay with it.”
“You can always say no. I won’t be upset with you regardless of your decision. I know the extent of this intimacy may be…a lot.”
“I’d like to give it a try. Really. I’ve never done anything like this, but it felt almost…empowering. If that makes any sense.”
Blanche smirks. “I do know, darling. I know exactly how it feels.Especiallywhen you have the right partner. I had that in my Henry, and from the looks of it,youhave it with our Sasha?”
Memories of him flash through my mind. The way he took the lead, walking me through every scene as I struggled in the beginning. The game night he set up when I was nervous about naked Twister.The way he somehow made me feel safe, all the while fucking me like an animal. And then the lengths he went to that night to take care of me. I think of the way I feel falling asleep and waking up in his arms. How he took the time this morning to set my coffee up for me. He’s taken care of me at every turn.
“I would like to think so,” I whisper.
“Actually, I’ve been meaning to ask. How are the two of you getting along? I have hoped that you would be able toreallybond this week…” she says with a wink.
This time, Iknowshe must see how deeply I’m blushing. “Oh, well we’ve spent a lot of time together and we’ve gotten to know each other very well…but, um…nothing…likethat.”
“Oh,” she says, frowning. “If you don’t mind me asking, is that something you want to explore outside of filming?”
Is that something I want to explore?Do I ever! I’ve never been so horny in mylife.It’s like ovulation week every day living with this guy.Especiallynow that I know how he fucks. What it feels like to stretch around him. My whole body shudders at the memory.
“Have youseenthat man?” I stare at her, blinking slowly, until we both laugh.
“Well, in that case, dear. I’ll let you go. I need to get a jump-start on dinner.Oh!Would you like to join us? Henry and Kat won’t be here tonight, but I would absolutely love to introduce you to the others.”
I briefly contemplate accepting before I remember how many babies that will be between her other two children. I really should say yes and take this opportunity to get to know them, considering they might very well be my long-lost family. But Sasha said he would be back later, and I wouldn’t want to miss him.
“Thank you so much for the invite, but I have a hot date with my book today. Maybe another time?”
