“I-I didn’t know. I never knew,” Lana stuttered as her breath hitched.
“Hey, hey. I’m here, Lana.”
She didn’t know what came over her when she started sobbing uncontrollably. She’d almost lost him for good, and it was her fault for not trusting him.
“Hey! What’s wrong, Lana?”
She’d stood up and had wrapped her arms around her waist as she’d stalked toward the open bay window in the back of the living room that faced his large fenced in back yard. She couldn’t stop the tears and the nightmares from playing over and over in her head.
While the house was a nice size, the yard was bigger. She figured it was situated on at least four aces of land altogether.
She didn’t react when she felt his arms encase her. She was afraid it was a dream at this point.
“Lana, look at me.”
She turned her head slightly, looking at him through her lashes, afraid of the tricks her mind might play on her at this point. When she felt his lips on her temple, she broke.
Her sobs became gut-wrenching and painful. She couldn’t catch her breath.
All she could do was feel the pain her body was putting her through at the thought of her having almost lost the one person, besides her children, that gave her life meaning. The man she couldn’t help but still love no matter what.
The memories they’d shared, the laughter, the tears. All of it came rushing back, just like the pain her body felt when she walked away when she’d thought he’d betrayed her.
She buried her face inside of his neck when she felt him lift her up and carry her into a room. She wrapped her arms around his neck, her hold tight, afraid this was all a nightmare in her mind.
She didn’t protest or fight him. She curled into him as he murmured softly to her as he carried her.
She felt him lay her down on a bed and crawled in beside her as he held her tight. All she could do was grip his shirt as if he would slide away if she didn’t.
When the sobs started to quiet down, she suddenly felt embarrassed. Yet, her fear was still there.
“Hey, are you okay?” She heard his soft question.
“I’m sorry. Hearing what happened, all I could think about was the kids never getting the chance to know you.”
“Was that all you were thinking about, Lana?”
Lana’s heart seized at his question. Could she truly admit what she was feeling about everything?
“Yes…no. Knowing I was wrong about everything with Brandie, I realized I would have cost you time and everything with the twins. Everything would have been my fault.”
“Lana…baby…”
When Jayson crushed her into his chest, she found the courage to softly admit what was in her heart. “Or tell you I’ve never stopped loving you. Every night I cried myself to sleep wishing you had been there through the pregnancy, watching them say their first words. Take their first steps. Their first day of school. Everything. It would have all been my fault.”
CHAPTER
FOURTEEN
As soon as her confession left her mouth, she felt Jayson crushing his lips to hers. Stealing the air from her lungs as he drank from her lips.
Lana’s grip on Jayson’s shirt tightened as she rolled to her back, pulling him with her. When she felt his body align with hers, she hooked a leg around him, keeping him tied to her.
She locked her other leg against his hip, keeping him in place as she attempted to dry hump him, needing the friction. She needed everything this man embodied and didn’t want to admit how badly she needed him.
They ate at each other’s lips, both fighting for dominance. She came up for air when she felt Jayson’s fingers teasing her clit, her desire igniting into an inferno.
She’d never felt his hand explore her body or him unzipping or unbuttoning her jeans. She’d been lost in the feeling and taste of him.
