I’m awful I know. Do you think I’m a slut?
Ellie:
Ya know what don’t answer that.
Pacey:
LOL I do NOT think you’re a slut. I think you and Travis have a connection that’s hard to ignore in close quarters.
I frown at her message. Is that it? Do we have a connection? No. Nope.
Ellie:
It’s just physical and…easy since we’re both on the road.
Pacey:
Right. Whatever you say. So what happened? Did he trip and fall into your vagina?
I laugh out loud.
Ellie:
HAHA. I’m actually laughing btw. But no, we didn’t touch each other. It was like last time pretty much.
Pacey:
The ‘pretty much’ tells me there’s more but I won’t press it. Anyway, you’re not technically breaking any rules if you’re not touching each other? Right?
Ellie:
I honestly don’t know. I didn’t read my contract. They just said ‘don’t sleep with each other and make shit weird.’
Pacey:
I’m going to skip over the part where you didn’t read the contract because honestly I probably wouldn’t have either knowing Tanner’s tendencies. I imagine it was long. But if that’s all that was said, you’re good! Don’t even worry about it. Unless…
Ellie:
Unless what?
Pacey:
Well, unless you want to sleep with him. Unless you’re worried it’s going to get to that point and get messy?
I bite my lip, considering her question. Of course I want to sleep with him. I’m horny as shit and I’d rather it be with him than some random guy. I know Travis can please me. It’s less work, that’s all. But it might get messy if that happens. I already feel bad enough, and he hasn’t even really touched me.
Ellie:
I’m not worried. I’m just going to tell him we can’t keep fooling around. We don’t have much longer left on tour. How hard could it be? It’ll be fine.
It’s not fine.
I’m no better than a weak-ass man wanting to get his rocks off.
Travis has snuck into my hotel room every stop. Every time, we do different variations of masturbating while the other watches. Every time we swear it’s the last, and we can’t keep doing this because it’s getting harder tonottouch each other.
This last time, I almost broke down into tears because I wanted to suck his cock so bad. Do you know how long it’s been since I’ve given a blow job? I’m too embarrassed to say. A long-ass time.
