Chapter 32
Beck
I’ve all but drained Jensen over these past few days. There were things that had to be done and my attention was pulled elsewhere that I didn’t see how bad until Dex showed us pictures of Miles and Dottie together. Her eyes barely lifted and her smile was faint.
I know I’ve hurt her and so much of me has wanted to fix that every chance I get, but I get why she said wait.
I want to give my mom the goodbye she deserves. I want to be the son my dad needs. But I think I needed these few days to really let all the hurt, anger, and resentment go.
I’m going to miss my mom so fucking much. I’ll think about her every single day, but I’m so happy to have Jensen. I want to start living again. I need to know my mom’s looking down to see the man she remembers me to be.
As the reception comes to a close, I watch as Lucie attempts to revive Jensen as much as she can.
Dex falls in line next to me, this slight smile on his face. “I’ve got to warn you, Luce is about to kidnap Jensen.”
“I’d expect nothing less from her.” I huff out a small laugh. “Don’t you have something to tell me anyway?”
Dexhumphs, and for a moment I think he might let it slide, but I want to hear him say it.
“I told you so.”
Thank fuck. “Yeah, you did.”
Dex’s hand lands on my shoulder. “I know you don’t want to hear any more apologies, so just know that I’ll keep Dottie in my house until you both come home. However, I can only hold back my wife for so long.”
And there’s a little more of a real laugh. “You can promise Lucie that I’ve got it under control. We’ll be home in a few days.”
“Take your time.” Dex squeezes my shoulder. “We love you, man.”
“I love y’all too. Thanks for coming down.”
“Of course.” Dex nods, then looks back to our girls. “I’ll take mine, you get yours.”
“Thank god, yours is scary.”
Dex’s smile grows obnoxiously. “Tell me about it.”
When we get within ear shot, I can hear Lucie’s pleas. “Are you sure you don’t want to come home with us? You can get some actual rest and I’ll make you whatever food you want.”
Jensen’s head tilts back and her eyes shut. I want to take the opportunity to answer for her and say no, she stays with me, but I wouldn’t fault Jensen if she decides to go. Honestly, it makes me kind of happy to know that Lucie loves my girl this much.
I want to fix my fuckup first. I want Jensen to stay so I can tell her what she means to me. But I suppose if she leaves I’ll go too.
Jensen lets out a heavy breath. “I’ll be home in a few days, Luce. I promise.”
I reach for Jensen, careful not to startle her then pull her back against my chest. “I’ve got her Luce, I swear.”
Lucie doesn’t seem entirely convinced. Dex was right, she would definitely kidnap Jensen right now if she could.
Dex pulls Lucie a step back. “It’s okay baby. You can mother her when she gets back.”
Only then do I see Lucie relax a bit. Her eyes move between Jensen and mine. “Promise you’ll both get some rest? I’m sorry, I can’t turn it off.”
“We’d never ask you to do that, Luce.” I place a small kiss on Jensen’s head and hold her tighter. “We will get some rest later.”
I don’t think either of us can truly rest until we talk. I actually refuse to rest myself until I can tell her how much I love her.
Jensen reaches a hand out for Lucie. “It’s okay. Text me when you get home?”
