He took slow strides toward me. In that moment, I felt like his walk-in shower wasn’t big enough. He got to me way too fast. I was picked up without warning and placed roughly against the shower wall. His injured hand showed no signs of weakness. Force of habit caused me to wrap both my legs and arms around him.
“Put me down, Christian.” My eyes were locked with his.
His petty ass put me down alright. I loved the way this man felt. Him being mad, or whatever he was, didn’t change the fact that he was made for me. On impact, I broke eye contact by shutting mine and biting my lip.
Christian wasn’t playing fair. He was upset, and instead of saying what the fuck he felt, he chose that route. That dick was good, whether it was to torture me or please me. I accepted it however he was dishing it.
“Why you here, Journei?”
He knew talking was somethin’ I couldn’t do while he was in me. His dick deleted my vocabulary except his name. His mouth was on my neck, and I was really having a hard time focusing.
“Christiannnn.” That was the only thing I said within the five minutes of his question.
“Answer me.” His tone was at a whispered stage, but his strokes were screamingcum for me.
“I’m cumminnn’.”
I gripped my walls around his dick while his veins massaged them. The feeling of his dick pulsating in my pussy was throwing me over the edge. We mixed well together. Why couldn’t he see that?
Our bodies stayed joined as one as we caught the natural rhythm of breathing. When he removed his head from the crook of my neck, I saw so much regret in his eyes. Why couldn’t he just tell me what was bothering him all of a sudden?
“Christian, what is it?”
“You’re selfish, Journei. I meant what I said. Leave.”
I was moved off the wall, getting ready to be placed down when I held on tighter. He was still inside me, and that dick was still hard as a rock. Until he said what needed to be said, I was gon’ be one childish ass heffa.
“Explain that to me and I’ll leave.”
“I’m a grown ass man. I don’t have to explain shit. If I said get the fuck out my house, that’s what I mean. I’m tired of this back-and-forth with you. Go home and be a wife.”
I loosened my grip around his waist and neck. “Put me down,” I said.
He did as I asked, and even with him detaching himself from me, it felt good. However, we could agree on one thing. The back-and-forth shit was for the birds indeed.
Yes, I had a wife, but if I had to honestly choose… Christian would win. My feelings for him overpowered what I had for my wife.
Once my feet hit the floor, they didn’t stop until they were in front of the trench coat and heels, I slipped off in front of his elevator. He wanted me gone, so wish granted, muthafucka.Christian Gills, I bid you a farewell.
I drove home with blurred vision from the many tears I cried. I needed him, and he threw me away like I was trash. That hurtme more than Alexis cheating with Trina. He was my safe haven, and that was ripped from me within seconds.
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Journei tried her best to figure out why I was upset with her. I gave in to her one too many times, and because of that, I felt reckless. Our bodies connected unprotected and exposed. She was selfish for the acts she pulled that night. Any time we had sex, I was so mesmerized and caught up in her essence that releasing inside of her never registered. Everything I wanted with her came to the forefront of my life, including a marriage and kids. I asked her to get off me for a reason that night.
I loved being inside her, but I crossed a line by being intimate with her already. I wasn’t gon’ take it a step further and put my son in her womb. Her ignoring me possibly resulted in just that. I was pissed from her selfish ways but still wanted her near. However, she was toxic, and I didn’t need that.
That woman brought a side of me out that I locked away. Disrespecting women the way I did her was never somethin’ I participated in, but my mouth was definitely reckless that night. I used unpleasing words and cursed her out like she wasn’t the one who I was ready to drop any- and everything for.
A talk with my granny was needed, so I came over. I didn’t hide anything from her, so she was gon’ get the real deal aboutme and Journei. I used my key to enter her crib. She was in the kitchen fixing a plate of peach cobbler and ice cream. I placed a kiss on her cheek before I sat down.
“How you feeling, Ma?”
“I’m good, baby. Where you been lately? Haven’t seen you or talked to you in a week. What’s been goin’ on, son?” her sweet voice asked.
“I got an earful for you, Ma. Don’t scold me ’til you heard everything, a’ight?” She nodded and sat with her dessert. “I found a woman. Thing is, she’s married. Ma, I think about this woman every day, all day. When she’s around, I’m praying every second to not give in to her. As a man of faith, I should have more control, but she knocks down any wall I have up with lil’ to no effort. And these last few months, we’ve been intimate. I know it’s wrong, but when I’m with her, my soul is at ease. She pullin’ at my heart, Ma.”
“When I say this, I want you to listen well. Yo’ grandaddy had me wrapped around his finger. I mean to the point where I divorced my high-school lover and didn’t look back. Marvin moved somethin’ in this old body that Danny didn’t. We didn’t have relations until I was a free woman though. Yo’ grandaddy had one up on Danny. He made time for me, no matter how busy he was, while I had to beg Danny for his, and we shared the same bed. Marvin was the best thing I ran across. He valued me and reassured his love for me every day. I don’t regret a damn thing.”
