I was not that person when he asked for things. So, we may have gotten more than just some clothes for the both of us, since apparently we had to match while lounging around the apartment. I didn’t mind, but the stack of books consisted of coloring books, word searches, and sticker books. At least there were a few more adult type reading books, but I had a feeling I’d be the one reading them in the end. Most likely out loud to a bossy little.
We were able to get food and a stuffed animal, too. The stuffed dog was black and white and extremely squishable. Noah’s words, not mine.
I hoped one day that he’d find the perfect daddy-dom. Someone who would spoil him, love him and cherish him just the way he deserved. Noah could have the world.
I’d give it to him if I could be who he needed.
Noah also went back to his job, too. Well, technically, it wasn’t a job because he didn’t get paid. But it gave him something to do to pass the time. Plus, he loved taking care of all the animals at the shelter.
Every night, he was asleep by the time I made it back home, taking up almost my entire bed. How someone so little could take up a queen-sized bed would forever be a mystery. I didn’t even take up that much space, and I was a couple of inches shorter than he was.
Now, that I had a full three days off instead of just the normal two, which didn’t happen all that often, I stood in front of the mirror that was on the back of the bathroom door.
I wasn’t sure how Noah had talked me into going to the club tonight. I’d much rather just stay in, but he did have a point. Open Family Night, which was when the club that required a membership to visit, was opened up to the community for a night.
I hadn’t ever gone. The last time they were letting in non-members, I had to work. And I wasn’t in the mood to go alone without a friend. Now that Noah was here, I still didn’t want to go. I’d rather stay in, cuddle, and watch a movie on the floor where we’d end up falling asleep.
With a sigh, I looked over what I wore one more time. My favorite black jeans were tight against my thighs. A looser gray shirt that almost hung off one shoulder with some sort of faded design on the front. Then, the dark blue silk underwear underneath that no one would see. The soft material hugged me in all the right places, and I was glad that I had been able to get a moment alone to slip on a cock cage since that part was trying to wake up.
Silk did things to my body that I didn’t want to think about for too long.
Tonight wasn’t about me. It was for Noah. It always was and would be. Even after he’d found his happy ever after. It’d still be about him. Because as long as I could give my full focus to him, my own desires and issues could be pushed farther down. Maybe eventually, they’d all be buried deep enough that I’d forget they ever existed.
“Asher?” Noah’s voice came muffled through the door. I could picture him standing right there, toes against the solid piece of wood. Possibly his nose, too. “You ready?”
“Yeah.” As ready as I’d ever be. I kept that part to myself. At least my hair was halfway decent at the moment. A bit longer on the top, where the blond strands could be styled with gel and held back off my face. Most of the time, I didn’t bother to do anything with it, letting the pieces get in my eyes more often than not.
Stepping back and pulling the door open, I found Noah right where I expected. He wore similar jeans that hugged his frame and a shirt that had a teddy bear on it. The one I had just gotten him a few days ago. He looked cute, even with his wavy hair falling across his forehead.
“Ready?” I asked after a moment of us just standing there.
“Yep.” With that, he turned his back to me, expecting that I’d follow. Truthfully, I’d follow him into flames that would cook us alive if he asked me.
How the heck was I ever going to let him go find a daddy? How could I ever trust another man to put Noah’s needs above his own?
Shoot. I really wished I could be what he needed. It wouldn’t be the last time I’d think that.
Tonight was going to suck for me. Not for the boy who had a skip to his step, though. No. He’d have the eyes of many different doms on him. He didn’t even need to dress fancy or anything. He could go in sweatpants and a hoodie and they’d all be drawn to him.
After making sure I had my phone, keys, and wallet, I locked the place up. Noah bounced in place as I double-checked that the door was shut tightly before all but sprinting down the stairs.
I took them a bit slower, trying and failing to find the desire to go anywhere tonight. It would have been so easy to just tell Noah that I didn’t want to go. He’d go without me, but then what if he had another incident like last time? What if it was worse than a few bruises and cuts? What if someone grabbed him and never let him see the light of day again?
It didn’t take nearly long enough to get to the club. It was an easy twenty-minute drive from the apartment, and traffic was light.
Finding parking did take longer. The lot was full, and some cars were parked along the street on both sides. I ended up having to park down the road a little bit. Noah wasn’t the least bit deterred by the amount of people, unlike me.
The anxiety was slowly rising, filling my bloodstream with its demanding presence. I sent a silent prayer up that the swirling emotions would stay covered until I got back home, at the least. Or not show up at all. That’d be even better.
There was no line when we reached the front door, but we did have to hand over our cell phones and get a colored bracelet on our wrists.
“Red is no playing at all. Yellow is play is okay but within limits, and green is good to go. Now these tell others if you are a sub, dom, or switch. Take your pick and then head farther inside to find your next obsession in the kink world.” The girl quickly spoke the words, and probably not for the first or last time tonight. She sat behind a makeshift table with piles of different colored paper bracelets. Each one also had the words taped to the table.
“Yellow for me. Green for him.” I nodded towards Noah, who was all but clutched to my side. “Both subs.”
The girl smiled too brightly, helping to put them on our wrists before allowing us to go further into the building. “Have fun!”
Noah pulled me into what was the main area. There were too many people to really see much of anything, but I think there were a couple of couches and chairs. The lights were low enough that made it hard to see, too. And the music was just below too loud.
