Was it crazy that I trusted these people with my life more than I ever trusted my parents? Even as a teenager, they never exactly approved of what I did. But couldn’t they just love me for who I was now, after everything?
I highly doubted it.
Another sigh. This time, my breath must have tickled Ryker’s bare chest, as he turned over, facing me and wrapping both hands around me.
It sounded like he muttered my name while breathing me in. My head was tucked under his chin, and I was finally more caged into his arms like I wanted.
Just as I was almost asleep, another body pressed up against my back.
Not wanting to draw attention to the fact that Enzo had followed me, I kept my breath even. I didn’t want to scare him away.
Maybe he felt as lost and scared as I was. Did he fear what was going to happen, too?
Turning over, with my eyes still closed, I pressed my face into Enzo’s chest. I didn’t want to do today. I’d be good with skipping it all together.
The panic was still there, just waiting for the right words or actions to tell it to appear. And it wouldn’t be pretty.
Slowly, Enzo’s hands rubbed my back, almost coaxing me back to sleep. It was only my mind going in circles over all the things that could happen that was stopping me from doing just that.
A sigh, one filled with sorrow and regret, released from my lungs. I pulled away just enough to glance up at Enzo.
“Hey, you.”
I could only blink. I didn’t want to say a word. A breakdown was so close, I could grab it.
“Ryker has breakfast.”
Enzo pulled fully away but waited for me to follow. Dragging my feet, I made my way out of bed and then to the bathroom.
I didn’t have to say a word for him to understand what I was feeling. He just knew. Knew me.
After finishing getting dressed, I looked up at him, meeting his gaze. He was right there in front of me. Two palms on either side of my cheeks, forehead pressed to mine, he spoke low.
“Whatever happens today, I’ll be right there. I won’t let you lose what we have here. Got it?”
I nodded, fighting back tears. I did know that between Enzo and Ryker, and even Scarlett, they wouldn’t let anything happen to me. But they didn’t know my parents.
“You have me, baby. I promise; I'm not going anywhere.”
With a nod, I tipped my head up just enough to press my lips against his for a soft kiss.
“Come on.” He pulled back, taking one of my hands in his before coaxing me out of the bedroom. With Enzo, I could have that bit of hope to take on this one giant task.
“Sit.”
I followed the simple order, taking a seat at the table. Once Enzo seemed okay with that, a pill and glass of water were placed in front of me.
On another order from Enzo, I took the anti-anxiety med and anti-depressant. Thankfully, only a small plate of fruit was placed in front of me afterwards.
I didn’t think I could stomach a whole lot this morning.
“Eat whatever you can, sugar.” Ryker ran a hand through my hair.
I only managed one small bite and felt it threatening to come up instantly. I pushed the plate away slightly, then folded my arms on the table, laying my head on top of them.
Ryker
Iwasn’t the only one worried about Emery. Every time Enzo’s eyes looked my way, they were filled with dread.
