Chapter 41
Avidya
Standing up on weak legs after flushing the toilet, I couldn’t help but groan out. Now that my stomach wasn’t in knots, I felt like I was starving.
Exiting the stall, I ran smack into the one and only Kenna. She quickly steadied me with a small, mumbled apology.
“It’s okay,” I muttered out, blushing.
How long had she been in here? Did I even really want to know?
“You okay?” she asked me, stepping back so I could pass her to the sink.
“Peachy,” I said, giving her a false smile as I turned to the sink to wash my hands.
“Avidya,” she said, lowering her voice.
I knew that tone. With it coming from her, my shoulders sagged and I hung my head. Tears of shame, embarrassment, and loss clouded my vision.
“Oh, honey,” she soothed, pulling me into a hug.
At her touch, at her soothing hold, I couldn’t help but burst into tears. I wasn’t even sure why, if you would have asked. I just felt so overwhelmed all of a sudden.
I hated feeling like this. I hated crying. I never cried over simple things before now. Was being with Zachariah the reason? Was he possibly bringing out my crazy feelings with everything that we were doing? Was it just too much for me to handle?
After a few moments, I was able to get my emotions under control. Sniffing, I pulled out of Kenna’s hold, giving her a watery smile.
“Here,” she said, handing me a washrag that she grabbed from under the sink.
“Thanks,” I said, taking it from her and wetting it down.
After washing my face off, she handed me a mint, which I quickly slipped into my mouth. Looking in the mirror, my eyes were red from crying and my face pale.
“What’s wrong with me?” I asked to my reflection.
“Let me ask you this,” Kenna said, leaning against the countertop and looking at me knowingly. “When did you have your depo shot last?”
I scrunched my eyes in thought. What did that have anything to do with my question?
“I can’t remember,” I answer after a moment. I really couldn’t.
“Figured as much,” she said. “How long have you felt sick?”
“Off and on for a few weeks,” I shrugged. “But I haven’t gotten sick like that since I had the flu a couple of years ago.”
“Travis said you threw up when he was looking after you,” Kenna said, giving me that look that said I wouldn’t get away with lying.
Stupid idiot!I thought. Couldn’t Travis keep his mouth closed?
“Yeah,” I said, dropping my eyes. “I thought it was normal.”
“I have not met a sub that has thrown up when in subspace,” Kenna said. “But I wouldn’t rule it out. Except for the fact that I’m pretty sure you are pregnant.”
“I can’t be,” I nearly shouted, quickly looking at her in panic.
“Avidya, honey,” she said, turning and laying her hands on my shoulders. “I hate to say it, but you are.”
“No,” I said, horror consuming me as I shook my head back and forth. “Please, he’ll…”
